Dizzy || Hyunlix ff

Chapter 15

Felix pov

They all hugged me. I felt icky. It felt weird having people give me affection.

I want my blades. Oh gosh i miss them so much.

What if i cut myself while listening to a song? I'd listen to it and cut myself the whole time. That'd feel nice.

What if i didn't eat for the next week? Would anyone notice? Probably.

I snapped out my thoughts as Hyunjin waved his hand in front of me. "Lix, you good?" He looked at me with a worried look. Oh how i hate people worrying about me. "Huh? Yeah. Sorry just zoned out." I cleared my throat.

"Oh alright. Lets go home lix.. u need rest." Hyunjin said, standing up while i stood up with him.

"Okay." I said, walking back down from the ladder, everybody else followed.

I felt icky. I felt like i didn't belong. I felt like, I just bathed in honey and glue mixed together. I felt so icky. I was dizzy. Everything was moving with me, everything looked unreal. I felt like i would fall. But i wasn't going to. I just, can't, feel myself.

We arrived back at the dorms and i got a call from my mom. Wonderful. I answered it. "Hello?" I asked.

"Lee Felix! You need to come over, you need to visit your parents. Come have dinner tomorrow. Or i swear i will show up to your dorms, and hit you til you bleed." My mother said, hanging up the phone.

I gulped, putting my phone down. "Who was that?" Hyunjin asked. "My mom. She wants me to come eat dinner at her house tomorrow. I have to go."

I said, sighing. I was tired of her. "Oh okay, i can drive you there." Hyunjin said.

"Thank you, i love you." I said, smiling at him.

Hyunjin smiled back. "I love you too." He smiled. I hugged him. We soon fell asleep. We had a normal day, woke up, went to school, came home, except now i have to go to my parents house. I went to their house, scared to ring the bell.

"Come in, Felix!" My mother looked mad.

I walked in, greeted by my father.

"Hey Felix!" He also looked mad.

"Hi." I awkwardly said.

"Come, sit at the table." I nodded, going to the table.

"Hows ur school?" My mom asked. "Good." I replied.

"Any girls lately?" She knew i was gay. "No. You know that."

She slapped me on the head. "U like girls, thats final." She slapped me again on the head.

"No i don't." I talked back. "No. You do. You like girls, ur not 'gay'. Ur straight. If ur gay ur not my son." She said, taking a bite from her food. "Then i guess im not ur son." I said. "Excuse me?"

She asked, putting her fork down. "I guess, im not, your, son, then." I said sternly. She slapped me. She slapped me again. She slapped me once again. She stood up and took my chair away, causing me to fall on the ground.

She started screaming at me. "Ur not gay and thats final!" She screamed.

She hit me, she hit me again. She hit me and hit me and hit me over and over. She punched me in the stomach, causing me to push her away from reflex. "Excuse me? What did you just do?"

That was like the first time i ever pushed her away. "I-im sorry.. it was a reflex.." she punched me in the face. "I dont fucking care."

She hit me again, she picked me up by the collar. "U dont push me away, got it?" I nodded.

She threw me on the ground. "Get out. I dont own a faggot son." She screamed. "Okay.." i got up, she pushed me down again.

She started beating me up again. I started bleeding hard. "Now get out." I slowly walked out, feeling my cuts re-open.

I called Hyunjin. "Hy-Hyunjin?" I felt my voice break from the tears. "Felix?!" He jumped up, everybody around him looked confused.

"What happened?" Hyunjin asked Felix. "C-can you come pick me up?.." my voice cracked again as i cried harder.

"Im coming right now. Im 5 minutes away, ill be there soon." He said, I heard his car keys jingle and him walking out the door.

He soon arrived, he saw me crying. "Felix?!" He ran to me.

"What happened my baby.." he picked me up and saw i was bleeding. "Oh gosh, lets go to the hospital."

He said, laying me down in the backseat and driving me to the hospital. I ended up blacking out, i woke up in the hospital. Once again. I saw Hyunjin there and the doctor speaking, the doctor said i would be fine and Hyunjin didnt need to worry.

Hyunjin nodded. I didnt need to stay in the hospital and i could go straight home. Hyunjin carried me to the car, and put me in the backseat. I stared into the seat in front of me while I was laid down.

Thoughts filled my head as he drove back to the dorms, everybody was there wondering what happened and talking about the situation.

We arrived home and i tried to walk but i almost fell. Hyunjin caught me, carrying me bridal style inside. Everybody turned to the door as it unlocked.

"Felix!" They all ran towards me. Hyunjin laid me down on the couch.

"What happened?" Chan asked. "M-my mom.." I sighed. "I'll explain tomorrow morning.. i just want to sleep..." I said, grabbing my headphones and playing music.

Everyone nodded and headed back to their dorms. Hyunjin slept in his room and everybody was here next morning. I woke up to the music playing through my head. I woke up slowly, in pain from yesterday.

I did my usual routine in the morning, then i went back to the couch and sat down, the music playing through my head as i stared at the wall.

"Felix?.." Chan slowly said as Hyunjin let them in. "Hi." I said with a smile.

"Im guessing you're all curious." Everyone nodded.

"So basically, my mom called me and told me i had to come over for dinner or else she will come here and hit me til i bleed. So, i went there. She started to ask questions about me, like school, any girls recently. Etc, etc. I said; 'No. You know that.' Then she said other homophobic stuff and when I told her I'm gay, she started hitting me, beating me, slapping me, throwing me on the floor, etc, etc. She made me bleed hard and made me leave the house, so i did. And yeah, thats all that happened." I said, acting neutral as if it was nothing.

Everyone looked worried about me and pitiful. "I'm sorry Felix... thats horrible." They all gave me a group hug.

"Has this happened before?" Chan asked. "Yeah. Shes been abusing me since i was 3." I said, acting like it was normal.

Chan paused for a moment. "Wait, what?" He said. "Isn't that normal?" I asked. "No lix..." Hyunjin said.

"Oh.." I said. "Is that why you don't eat often?.." Hyunjin asked. "You don't have to answer." He said, politely.

"Yes and no. My mom used to get mad at me if i made a mistake so she wouldn't let me eat for a couple of days, soon after i started doing it by myself because i was so used to it." I said, shrugging. "Oh lix.." he hugged me harder.

To be continued...

A/N:
Hi mls, how are you? Did you eat, did you drink water today? And if you just woke up, remember to eat and drink water! Have a good day or i hope you have a good day if you just woke up. <333