He never had a plan, he just went with the flow

Chapter Five

Meny Yao held back tears as he held his son, Jin Rusong. Meng Yao stared into the eyes of the one-year-old, who would be turning two in a few months. All that stared back were wide green eyes and a happy smile.

Meng Yao's hands trembled as his tears fell. He put the dagger back, but he still couldn't do it. Jin Guangyao wanted to abort the baby, but Meng Yao was too weak to follow through. Jin Guangyao wanted to kill it before anyone could get attached, but Meng Yao got attached anyway, and now he's unable to deal with the killing blow.

And how could he kill his flesh and blood? This was different from Jin Zixuan –Which wasn't 100% intentional, he was starting to get fond of the couple— this was his child, he always wanted one and now he has one. But, A-Su is his half-sister –He never hated his mother-in-law and his father more than when he found out, why did she wait so long to tell him? She knew since before A-Su was born yet, didn't say anything during their courtship, she waited until they were engaged and after A-Su was pregnant— and he isn't sure how bad the birth defects might be. Meng Yao and Jin Guangyao curse their father for killing off Wen Qing; she is more useful alive than dead. Seriously, the best healer in his generation is given to them on a silver platter, and he kills her –But maybe that was a mercy considering his father's tract record–.

He sat down as A-Song attempted to bite his finger. He should have gotten out of that by now, but Meng Yao didn't mind it too much. Jin Guangyao wishes he could do the deed and get it over with, but whenever he looks into his eyes, Meng Yao comes out, and they can't do it anymore. How could they kill someone with their mother's eyes? The eyes of the one person who was always there for and loved him unconditionally.

Well not the only one, there's a knock on the door. "A-Yao? Jin Furen said you were here."

"We're here." The door opens, "We're? Oh, this is Rusong's room." Er-ge asks, "You know A-Su has requested you call her A-Su since we married?"

"Oh, she has?"

"Yes, I'm sure she's already mentioned it to you at least once."

"Now that you mentioned it, I think she did ask about that." He walks over, and Meng Yao hands him A-Song and is about to tell him how to hold him when Er-ge does it perfectly. Seeing the look on his face, Er-ge blushes slightly, "I have experience."

"Hanguang-jun?"

"Kind of. My cousins and nephew often end up in my care." Does he have a nephew? Why is this the first time he's heard of this? He immediately questioned him, "Ah, Wangji didn't want me talking about his son to others. And Huaisang is....very protective of his nephew."

"Huaisang is related to him too?"

"I think so. I still don't get it. He described it as a sworn sibling type of thing." Er-ge looks as confused as he sounded. How curious. The Jin Guangyao part of him wanted to investigate further. Meng Yao, though, just wanted to keep talking with Er-ge.

"Well, are you allowed to talk about him now?" He wanted to learn more about Er-ge's family. Er-ge was practically vibrating in excitement, "Yes! I've wanted to talk to someone about him for the last two years!" Meng Yao quickly took A-Song back; he trusts Er-ge, but he can be forgetful when he's excited. He's still mourning his lost brushes.

He led Er-ge to a seat as he started talking, "So, Sizuhi is his courtesy name, but his birth name is Yuan." He has a courtesy name already. Then again, A-Ling does as well; maybe it's a thing for the next generation.

"And he's been so good despite the circumstances but is smart and determined!"

"Really?"

"Yeah, he's been trying to learn how to play the Xindi and the Bangdi–"