It was a week after the surgery. Solar had, begrudgingly, said sorry, but one look at him and you knew he wasn't being sincere. Which was absolutely horrible. Their brother had lost his life for a few minutes, and 'sorry' was all he would say?
Ais was giving him the silent treatment. Gempa was trying to be patient with him, but would get more frustrated with him easily. Duri was extremely disappointed with his closest brother and decided to give him the cold shoulder. Taufan was hesitant on how to feel about the situation, he was upset about what Solar did to Blaze but he felt like there was more to it and he should see his point of view before he does anything but Halilintar warned him to keep a distance from Solar. Halilintar didn't talk to him a lot, as usual, but made a lot more snarky comments.
The brothers had decided to leave the house more often to stay with Blaze overnight at the hospital. With consent of course. So they would be home less often. But Solar refused to tag along.
“Aren’t you going to follow them?” Tok Aba asked Solar. “No,” Solar said, taking a sip of his coffee as he flipped the page of his book. And Tok Aba stayed silent and eventually sighed and left Solar’s room and left with the rest in disappointment. Solar felt a tug of guilt in his heart then pushed it down and continued on reading.
Just then, he heard a voice from outside his door, “WAIT FOR ME GUYS!” Taufan yelled, running down the stairs as he held his hoverboard under his armpit and attempted to tie his shoelaces at the same time. But he looked up and realised the rest had left without noticing he was left behind.
“Dang…” Taufan mumbled under his breath, turning towards the couch and slumped down on the couch, noticing Solar’s book placed on the coffee table in front of him. Taufan picked up the book out of curiosity and read the cover. "The Study of the Brain” the title read. Of course Taufan knew his little brother always liked to read this kind of stuff but he found it kind of odd since Solar usually studies own topic one by one, and just a few days back he was halfway through studying psychology, so he decided to check up on him.
He walked upstairs and tentatively knocked on Solar’s door. “Cahaya, can I come in?” Taufan asked, a tinge of concern in his tone. “Uh.. yeah, just a sec,” Solar mumbled and Taufan heard loud noises from inside the room and Solar eventually opened the door. The room was pitch black and the only light on was the one on Solar’s study desk shining on a book he was writing in. “Uh.. the lights? I thought you hated the dark-“ Taufan pointed out, but to get cut off by Solar. “Um.. yeah I do, but it’s fine,” Solar shrugged. “I guess I’m conquering the fear now.”
“Oh.. cool,” Taufan muttered, unsure what to say as he stepped into the room and took a seat on Solar’s bed.
“Hold on- I need to go to the toilet..” Solar trailed off and quickly dashed towards the toilet “DO NOT TOUCH ANYTHING!” He popped his head in one more time before officially going off. After he left, Taufan walked over to the light switch and turned on the lights and took a good look around the room. His room seemed more messy. Which was strange since Solar has always been the organised type. But then something caught his eye. His cupboard was slightly open , and there was a small sharp corner pointing out of it. Taufan curiously walked towards the closet, about to open it when suddenly Solar came into the room. “What the heck do you think you’re doing?” Solar scowled, startling Taufan. “I-I was just trying to close the closet door, I swear!” Taufan weaved out a lie but Solar obviously saw through him.
“That was a bad lie for such an experienced liar,” Solar scoffed. “You wanted to see what was in there, didn’t you?”
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SOLAR POV
a few minutes back…
Feelings. a feeling is "a self-contained phenomenal experience"; feelings are "subjective, evaluative, and independent of the sensations, thoughts, or images evoking them.The term feeling is closely related to, but not the same as, emotion. Feeling may, for instance, refer to the conscious subjective experience of emotions. The study of subjective experiences is called phenomenology. Now is it normal if you don’t know how to express them?
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birthday
FanfictionThe about: After a tragic incident on the day of Blaze's birthday, he loses his memory. His brothers now have to try to make up for all the bad things they have done to him in the past. A/N: this fanfic is quite past paced, a constant change in cal...
