Why Do You Hate Me?

10. You Don't Have To Yell

Song recommendation: Who by Lauv (feat. BTS)

They arived at their dorm after a while. Most of the members fell asleep on the way.

"Wake up everyone. We're here." Jungwon said as he shook with Jays shoulder to wake him up. Jay is a deep sleeper.

Jay slowly openes his eyes. He looks around and realizes they're already home.

Everyone slowly gets themselves out of the car, exept for Sunoo. He has headphones in so he probably didn't hear them.

Sunghoon is walking out the car when Heeseung shouts from behing the corner, "Sunghoon while you're still close to the car, can you please wake up Sunoo? He's still sleeping."

"Oh yea ofcourse." Sunghoon replies as he turns around and goes into the car again. He walks to the back and sits onto the seat next to Sunoo.

Sunghoon looks at Sunoo. He's just siting there with his head resting at the window. There is music playing in his headphones so he is basicly disconected from earth right now.

Sunghoon's POV

He's so beautiful. How can he look so good while sleeping?

"Why are you doing this to me Kim Sunoo." I say outloud. Thankfuly he didn't hear me beacouse he's still sleeping.

I'm truly sorry I hurt you so much, I know you don't deserve it. But this is the only way how to cope with these "feelings".

I reach out my hand and take his one headphone out of his ear.

"Sunoo." I say softly as I pat him on his shoulder.

His eyes flicker open as he starts to look around.

"We arived. The others are already inside. " I say.

He looks at me as he tries to fix his hair. "Oh o-okay." He stuters out.

Is he stutering beacouse he's nervous around me? Do I make him uncomftrable?

I want him to be happy around me, like before.

End of POV

"I'm going. Don't forget to lock the car, the keys are there." Sunghoon says to Sunoo as he points to the seat at the very front of the car.

"Wait-" Sunoo grabs Sunghoons hand and pulls him back. Sunghoon looks at him confused.

"Before you go, can I ask you something?" Sunoo asks.

"Oh um, sure." Sunghoon answered.

"What....what do you mean by that is is and isn't my fault?" Sunoo carefuly asks.

Sunghoon thinks for a while, what should he say? He can't spill the truth yet.

"I...I don't know how to explain it...." Sunghoon says. He looks away beacouse he's too nervous to look at Sunoo.

Sunoo's toughts are going crazy again.

"Wha- what do you mean by that? Was it my fault? Did I do something stupid again? I'm sorry. I'm so stupid." Sunoo says as he starts puching himsels on his head, trying to stop his toughts.

"Sunoo!" Sunghoon says as he grabs his hands so he would stop hurting himself.

Sunoo looks at him with tears in his eyes. "I'm truly sorry. It was my fault right? I caused all of this." Sunoo says as the tears start falling.

"I- I wish I could tell you Sunoo, I'm sorry." Sunghoon says. It realy hurts seeing how Sunoo takes it on himself.

"But why can't you tell me? Please tell me." Sunoo looks at Sunghoon.