Why Do You Hate Me?

14.What's up with him?

Song recommendation: Softcore by The Neighbourhood

Sunoo's POV

"~Wake up in day one~" my alarm starts playing.

Gosh why is it morning again.

I look at the time "8:00am". You must be kiding me, we have early practice today.

I'm so tired that I fall asleep again...........until someone named Nishimura Riki enters my room without knocking and starts shaking with me to wake me up. Fake ass emo.

"5 more minutes." I groan.

"Wake up Sunoo. Jay made scrambled eggs form breakfast." Niki says.

"I'm awake." my eyes imidiately lit up.

I get up and almost run to the kitchen. Jay, Jungwon, Heeseung and Jake are already siting there and eating.

"Is there something left for me?" I ask.

"Goodmorning to you too Sunoo." Jake says not even looking up at me as he points to the bowl next to him.

"Thanks." I say as I sit down and start eating.

End of POV

Niki also joins but he has cereal instead of eggs. He's a picky eater.

"Where is Sunghoon?" Heeseung asks. All of us look around the room.

"I don't know, did ya'll even wake him up?" Jungwon asks.

Everyone shakes with their head.

"I'll go wake him, I already finished eating." Jay says as he gets up and goes to Sunghoon's room.

He opens the door and walks in.

"Goodmorning, breakfast is ready."Jay says.

"I won't eat, I'm not hungry." Sunghoon says. He doesn't even look uo at Jay.

"Oh....sure." Jay goes back to the kitchen.

"So? Is he awake." Ni-ki asks. He bet with Heeseung that he's still sleeping.

"Nope, he's wide awake. Also he's skiping breakfast. Weird." Jay says.

Sunghoon's POV

I might look like I'm okay but I'm not.

I feel horrible. I don't know what to do.

I'm aware that I hurt Sunoo. I hurt him a lot.

I didn't mean to hurt him though.

I wish there was a diferent way to deal with this.

I can't even look at him anymore.

All of this is so wrong.

He's almost like my brother, I can't be like this. Or at least he was like my brother.....

I don't even want to think about the reason behind all of this. It disgusts me.

I'm so sick I can't even eat. I don't deserve to eat.

I want to cry but I can't, that would just make me look weak.

I'm so stupid. How could I even let myself think about something like that.

Sudenly my phone starts ringing. I answer it.

"Sunghoon where are you?! Practise started 15 minutes ago." Jungwon almost yells through the phone.

I panic. "Oh sorry I'll be right there."

I snap out of my thoughts and run to the practise room.

"I'm so sorry I'm late I forgot about time!" I says panting as I barge in.

"Then, now that we're all, lets start." Ni-ki says as we all get into posisions.

We're practising the choreography to our song "Moonstruck".

I personaly realy love this song. When I dance to it I feel like I'm gliding through air. (literaly (iykyk))

We practise for like 8h? Literally from 9am to 5pm. Of course we had lunch break but still.

I didn't eat anything the whole day though. I just don't deserve it you know?

End of POV

All of the members went to their rooms and are now resting.

Most of them are probably sleeping but not Sunoo.

He's packing the rest of his stuff.

Sunoo's POV

When I get into my room I jump onto my bed. I realy want to sleep.

Todays practise was realy hard but I need to finish packing.

I get up and pack all of the things that I need.

I'm still unsure about this. Should I go and leave all of my hard work behind?

Yes, I have to. I don't belong here.

I feel like my emotions just turned off beacouse normaly I would cry in this situation.

To be honest it feels kind of nice when you can't feel anything anymore.

My mind just went numb. But on the other hand I don't know if I'll ever smile again.

I can fake it but I can't mean it.

When I finish packing I hide my suitcase again.

I go to my bed and fall asleep.

End of POV

"Knock knock Sunoo diner's ready" Jay knocks on Sunoo's door.

Sunoo slowly opens his eyes and looks at the time, "7:30pm".

He walks out of his room and sees only Jay in the kitchen.

"Where are the others?" Sunoo asks.

"I still didn't wake them. Can you do it please? I'll prepare the bowls and chopsticks." jay asks.

"Oh sure." Sunoo says as he goes to Jungwon's room. He opens the door "Diners ready Jungwon!".

"Coming!" Jungwon says from his bathroom.

Then he goes one by one to Jake's, Ni-ki's and Heeseung's room and does the same.

Sunoo reaches Sunghoon's room and sudenly he gets nervous. He lifts his hand up to knock but hesitates.

After a while of pondering he finaly knocks and walks in.

"Diners read......Sunghoon?" Sunoo looks around the empty room.

"I was so nervous for what." Sunoo scoffs.

"Sunghoon isn't in his room." Sunoo says as he walks into the kitchen and sits down at the dinig table where the others are already eating.

"What? Then where is he?" Jay asks.

Everybody's silent.

"He's been weird the whole day." Jake says.

"Did ya'll see him eat anything today?" Jay asks.

Everyone shakes with their head.

"Shit is he okay?" Heeseung says worriedly.

"I'll try calling him." Ni-ki says as he dials Sunghoon's number.

"----------The number you dialed is turned off, please try calling later."

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