She's the little

chapter 27

if i weren't to panicked about some kind of possible punishment James may have for me id probably be drooling at how hot he looked while he angrily stared at me from the schools exit.

i watched him prowl his way over like some predator about to pounce on his prey, making me cower back against the car.
i don't think James would hurt me in anyway, but the way be was currently walking had my worried for anyone that got in his way.

"where have you been." he said, and the anger in his words hit me like a brick.
"scratch that i. don't. care. get in the car Dianna." he told me opening my door for me.
i looked down at the booster seat and normally i would have made a snarky little complaint but i had a feeling that would only cause more harm.

i think i felt the car shake with how much force he used to slam mine and then his car door.

the car ride was also painfully quiet and i could see James hands gripping the steering wheel so tightly that the bones looked like they were going to rip out holes through the skin.

i reached for my door handle as James parked but i felt my bone literally freeze when i heard James's tell me to stop. and i watched as he walked round the car and open my door for me, unbuckling my seatbelt, then picking me up and carrying me into the house.

i didn't bother with complaining. it would be a lie anyway. id grown to like being carried around the house.

he sat me on a chair then dragged me and the chair over to the corner.
"phone." he said holding out his hand.

i hesitated before reaching out and handing it too him.
this was the first time he'd ever even touched it.

"there's nothing on there-" i started to say but i stopped when James put his finger up, signalling me to shut the up.

"i'm turning your location on. bot going though it." he said and i let let a deep breath.
i wasn't lying, there wasn't anything bad, i just wasn't sure how i felt about James possibly seeing my messages, i didn't think he'd appreciate me talking about how chiselled his abs were to David.

i nodded looking down at my knees.

"2 hours. every time you talk you get 20 more minutes." James said kneeling down next to me.

i looked at him and nodded, biting my bottom lip.

that was the longest id ever sat in silence, staring at a wall.
i cried a-bit too, but unlike previous times, janes didn't come comfort me. at-least not till the timer went off.

i think that timer opened the floodgates because as soon as it started ringing, my few stray tears and whimpers turned into tears rivers flowing from my eyes and loud sobs erupted from my lungs.

i think James had been sat waiting for the timer go off because he was almost instantly at my side picking me up end pacing back and forth while bouncing me in has arms.

"shh.. its okay, its fine, i know your sorry." he said, as he stroked my back.

i started blabbering apologises for disparaging.
honestly i couldn't even tell you why because before he sat me down i wasn't even that sorry, i was still a little angry, but being at there for so long my mind wandered off and eventually i just felt sad and lonely.

as James bounced me up and down i felt him reach back into his trouser pockets, pulling out the little white pacifier.
he moved, holding me away from his chest as he gently pushed the thing into my mouth before pulling me back in. i didn't even get time to react  before he was holding me against his chest again.

i was too tired and sad to fight. i didn't have it in me to reject the comfort item, as i normally would.

"there you go.. such a sweet little girl.." James mused in my ear as he returned to rubbing my back as he sat on the couch

eventually my sobbing stopped and i just sat leaning on James like that, staring into space.

"Dianna?" James said after a long while of silence.

instinctively i reached up to my mouth pulling the pacifier out and sitting up to look at him.

"I'm sorry i told people about last night. Taylor texted and told me thats why you didn't show up to class." he said as he rubbed his hand up and down my arm. "it wasn't my place to tell people that, and i didn't realise it would have been something you'd want to keep to yourself."

i appreciated james's apology, though it didn't negate my feelings, he made me feel more seen. " its okay." i told him looking down.

"look at the cool part though, you got through one of the hardest parts of a transition James said looking at the pacifier hooked on my finger before pulling my back forward and kissing the top of my head.

"shut up." i said rolling my eyes, and putting my head back down on him.

i felt his fingers trace my right arm and end up on my hand, guiding the pacifier back up to my mouth without even being able to see it.