Trying. -Bayani ~completed~

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Hope's POV:

I sat on the couch, not really knowing to do. What would my family think? I could see it now, "Hope did  you only go to Seattle to get pregnant?"   Ugh. I hate them sometimes. I don't know what to do about this.  I mean they barely know about Jordan and I. How do I fix this? Jordan walked over to me and rubbed my shoulders, trying to comfort me. I would've been happier, but I'm scared, for me, for Jordan, for my baby. What if I'm not a good mom? What if I can't control them? What if they are as depressed as me? I shivered at that last thought. I didn't even want to pretend that's a thing. I tweeted out a tweet expressing my feelings:

I don't know what to feel anymore... I'm scared.

Jordan grabbed my hand and pulled me to stand up. "What are you doing...?" I questioned Jordan as he grabbed his phone and fiddled with it. Finally, sound busted through the speakers of his phone. "I will make you queen of everything you see, I'll put you on the map, I'll cure you of disease."  it sang and I smiled. Jordan grabbed my hand and danced with me. We swayed back and forth, not really to the beat of the song but just slow dancing. I smiled, as I buried my head into Jordan's chest. "Hope I will never leave you I wish you will keep that in your mind." Jordan said while playing with my hair. I stood on my toes to kiss Jordan, having my lips be met with his. His lips are so soft, unlike my rough, chapped lips from biting my lips.

I moved my tongue on Jordan's bottom lip, wanting to be dominate in this makeout session. He wouldn't give in, but after a while he finally opened. I explored the inside of Jordan's mouth and this is all I needed. I didn't need anything beyond this. This amount of pleasure was enough for me. After a few minutes of French kissing, I felt Jordan pull away, and I fluttered my eyes back open. My stare was met by Jordan's bright, emerald green eyes. I smiled, setting our foreheads together. Jordan poked at my nose and smiled as I scrunched up my nose. "I don't want to do anything today." I sighed loudly and felt like crying. "This whole baby thing is stuck in my brain. And its stressing me out." I said, wishing I wasn't pregnant. "Hope, I've told you before I never stopped loving you because of that baby, I will love him or her just as much as I love you." I sighed and sat down. I grabbed my book I was reading, Uglies, and whined about my stomach hurting. Jordan being the best boyfriend anyone could ask for, brought me some green tea. I thanked him with a smile and a peck on the cheek. Sometimes I felt like my own body hates me. Like why me? Ugh.

"Hey Hope?" Jordan asked as I looked up at him. "You should get some sleep, I have a fun day planned for us tomorrow." Jordan said as he walked up to me and put down my book, folding over the corner at the top, and scooping me up. Bridal style, Jordan carried me to the bedroom and set me on the bed. I felt his rough hands pull up my shirt and he took off his, sliding it over my head. He took off my jeans and put my tiny fuzzy duck shorts on in place. "I love you Hope." Jordan said and kissed my temple.

~a/n~

Sorry this is short I wanted to get it out today AGH I sorry guys ily and I'm having fun writing these parts. Stay sassy!

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