Trying. -Bayani ~completed~

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Hope's POV:

~a few weeks later~

I was sitting in the car with Jordan heading to the doctor. First ultrasound yet. I was actually starting to get excited to have a child with Jordan, you know? The car stopped and Jordan grabbed my hand, squeezing it. "You nervous?" I nodded my head and Jordan kissed me. "It's gonna be okay Hope."

We went into the ultrasound room, I felt like I was gonna throw up. Anxiety was everywhere. "Ms.Smith? Is this your first time? And is this man related to you or your baby in any way?" The woman asked and I nodded "he's the father." Jordan smiled down at me and looked at the picture. "Look it's a boy!" The woman said and then suddenly her attitude shifted. "Have you been very anxious lately?" I nodded and she just frowned. "I can't seem to find a pulse." My heart shattered. "Wha... What do you mean?" I asked tears freely flowing from my eyes. "Your baby is gone." The woman said, helping me sit up. I cried. I knew I didn't want to have a child but I was excited. I was happy to start a family with Jordan. He walked over to me and held my hand, and kissed my temple. "It's okay we will get over this Hope."

I sit staring blankly at the wall. I felt like my whole heart shattered in the palm of my hand. It just sucks. Jordan came over with Emma and Liam, seeing they were in town. He told them about the news and Emma sat next to me. "I'm so sorry." Was what she said and pulled me into a hug. I cried on her shoulder and sighed. "Don't cry, it's gonna be okay." "Everyone says that but how can I believe it if it never is okay?" Emma stood up and pushed me up with her. "Let's get out, Me, you, Jordan, and Liam, let's go to a restaurant. "Chipotle?" I asked and Emma nodded. She gathered the guys and I just looked at myself in the mirror. You killed your baby. The voice no. No. No. No. "Just shut up."  Jordan came over to me and wrapped his arms around me. "Hey? Are you okay?" He asked and I shook my head no. I felt awful. It's not that I want a child it's that I was used to being pregnant. I started liking being pregnant but I felt like my heart was ripped out. "Let's go eat, I'll make you feel better later." Jordan said and smiled.

~after eating~

Emma and Liam left us at the apartment, and Jordan smirked. "I want you." Jordan said and grabbed my face. Kissing me violently, he took my bag and set it down. I pulled at his jacket and took it off. Jordan smiled and moved us towards the bedroom. He sucked on my neck, earning a few moans from me and left a hickey for me to see in the morning. He pulled off his shirt and pushed me onto his bed, letting me fall down.  He pushed himself on top of me, as I felt him grow harder and harder. I pulled off his pants and boxers so he was fully naked and I was fully clothed. Jordan let out a low growl of annoyance and I giggled. I slowly took off my shirt and Jordan ripped off my pants, leaving me in my underwear and bra. I tensed up. "Hope what's wrong?" Jordan asked, his lustful eyes changing to a more worried look. "I literally lost my baby and you wanted to have sex. What's wrong with my life?" I asked between sobs. I grab my clothes on and my purse. I walk out of Jordan's apartment, off to who knows where.

This is the last chapter! Do not worry the sequel will be up in a few days, and I hope you guys enjoyed this fanfic, as much as I did writing it. Ily guys so much.

I have one question, I might be starting a YouTube and I don't want my name in my user, I want it to do with alpacas. So can you guys come up with minecraft usernames that have alpaca in them? Thank you <3

See ya surfers!!!