Sickness AU [COMPLETED]

♡chapter five♡

•Riley•
Everytime someone brought up Farkles name I felt a pang of distraught. I just felt horrible when it was brought up, because I didn't know if we were gonna walk into the hospital the next day and see him alive. When we left, mom dropped Maya and I off at Maya's house. When we walked inside Maya's mom was sitting on the couch one hand on her baby bump and the other in a cookie jar.
"Hey mom." Maya said.
Maya's mom head turned twords up and she smiled putting one hand behind her as she got off the couch.
"Hey girls." She made her way over giving me a small hug and kissing Maya's head.
"You good ma?" Maya asked taking off her coat.
"Just tired, I have to work a night shift tonight and I start in 30 minutes. I wanted to say hi before I left." Katy explained sitting down and putting on her shoes.
"They're seriously making you work a night shift? They do know you're 8 months pregnant right?"
"They know, they just don't understand." Katy laughed standing up. "Don't do anything stupid while I'm gone, love you Maya, bye Riley."
Maya hugged her jacket to her chest and looked at me. "I'll show you my room."
I followed her down the hall as she opened the door to her room. It was so cool and laid back.
"I like your room, it's so- you." I laughed shifting my overnight bag to my other shoulder.
"Thank you. You can put your stuff wherever." Maya smiled throwing her coat on a chair in the corner than sat on her bed.
I put my bag down then set next to Maya.
"You good?" I asked her putting a hand on her shoulder.
She laughed faintly and looked at me.
"Yeah, yeah. Just worried about Farkle."
"Me too." I whispered as Maya put her head on my shoulder.
~
I woke up in the middle of the night along with Maya. Both of our slumbers inturupted by a ringing phone.
Maya sat up and unplugged her phone from the charger raising it to her ear.

•Maya•
"Hello?" I said grogily rubbing my eyes.
"Maya. Hey, sorry it's so late. I just need to tell you something." It was Lucas's mom.
I glanced at Riley who tucked her hand under her face on the pillow and looked up at me.
"Yeah?"
"Ok. Baby girl you need to stay strong for me okay? After I say this-"
I got confused. "Say what? Just tell me, I will be okay."
She sighed. "Farkle is.. dead. He died during the chemotherapy. The dose killed everything, the cancer cells, the blood cells, the white cells, everything. And hours after he got off of it he closed his eyes, and passed away."
I put a hand over my mouth and held back my emotions till I got off the phone.
"I-I-" I stuttered.
"I thought you would want to know, I'm so sorry baby. I know how much you cared about him. You should come by tomorrow, maybe bring your friend Riley too." Te suggested.
"O-okay."
"Goodbye sweetheart." She said softly hanging up.
I put the phone down crossing my legs. I felt a tear slip from my eye and Riley sat up immediately.
"Maya? What happened? What was the call about?" She questioned.
"Farkle's dead."

•Riley•
"Farkles dead." Maya told me her eyes glossy. My stomach churned and I felt like crying.
She put her head in her hands her body racking with sobs.
"I needed him. I was set on the fact that I would hear that he got out and was on his way home. But I got my hopes too high, I let myself believe in things that I knew had shaky outcomes." Maya ranted sobs racking through her body.
"Hey, hey, hey." I shushed wiping her tears with my thumb.
"You hoped, and sometimes hoping won't change the written script that was written for your life. But everything will be okay, keep Farkle with you forever and live your life like he would his. Let his memory help you to recover from this." I explained rubbing circles in her back.
She nodded and a fresh set of tears covered her reddened cheeks.
She faced me and I opened my arms and she went into them her head resting on my chest, her arms around my waist. I moved my legs into a strattle so Maya could sit closer. I rubbed her back and put my face in her hair, tears falling out of my own eyes.
"It's going to be okay." I whispered telling that to Maya, and myself.
~
The moment I told my mom I could see on her face how bad she felt. Her face went pale and her eyes widened slowly as I explained.
I also brought up about going to Lucas's house for Maya's sake and she smiled softly. "If it will make you two feel better."

We were sitting in the car now, driving to Lucas's. Mom made a left turn onto his street parking out front. Nobody was outside, probably because the sky was a grey color with raindrops falling down occasionally, not practically outdoor weather.
I looked over at Maya and watched her as she deeply breathed in and out.
My mom peered at us in the window giving me a small smile when our eyes met.
She opened her door causing Maya to snap back into reality and get out. All 3 of us stepped up onto the porch, Maya ringing the doorbell.
Lucas's mom opened the door slowly and I saw Maya start to cry.
"Hey guys, thanks for coming. Come inside." Lucas mom invited. Lucas stood at the bottom of the stairs and gave Maya a sympathetic look as she ran to him. I smiled as he squeezed her tight, wishing I could be the one to do that.
Lucas looked up at me signaling me to come over. I made my way to the two and Lucas stuck his hand out. I took it and he pulled me into their hug.
"We're all going to be okay." He whispered.
~
The five of us sat in the living room chatter being exchanged between all
of us.
"Is he having a funeral mom?" Lucas asked.
"They are, but it will be small. His mom said they wanted it to be private. I honestly don't know why." She answered putting down her coffee cup.
I could tell Maya was a little hurt, but I also knew she understood where Farkles parents where coming from. And I could as well, they lost their only son. They probably didn't think about the risk of Farkle dying. I would feel the same.
"How are they though?" Mom questioned.
"My sister doesn't know what to do anymore, and Stewart- they're both in a very dark place. Completely lost and clueless." She answered.
Claire got off her brothers lap and moved into Maya's who's hair was covering her entire face.
Maya looked up at the curly blond.
Claire wrapped her arms around Maya's neck and Maya smiled holding her close.
"My mommy told me he's in a better place, and that he's happier now." She squeaked.
Maya nodded wiping away her own tears. "He is."
They hugged again and Claire put her head on Maya's chest.
We all talked for a few more hours the mood lighting up slowly. It felt like old times.
It was like The Walking Dead, outside there is a war going on where people are dying, but inside everyone is surviving, living on, and sharing laughs. I internally laughed at my Walking Dead statement realizing that I haven't been watching it that often due to all the time I have been spending off of the couch.
~
After Lucas's house Maya went home saying she needed some time by herself. I could understand where she was coming from and I felt the same way.
I acted normal the rest of the day, not really catching the attention of my parents. But later that night, when everyone was asleep and the sky was glittering with stars was when I broke. I sat on my bay window looking up at the moon folding my hands.
"Why?" I asked.
"I was just getting to know him, and you ripped him away just as I started to make a friend." I started to cry.
"Why didn't you let me know them earlier? Why did I go to support group so late? Why did I just start talking and making friends with Farkle?"
I stopped wiping away my tears.
"Why do I feel so horrible?"
"I didn't even know him for that long, a month maybe. And Maya and Lucas have known him for so much longer. I didn't want to cry with them, because I barely knew him."
I shook my head and sniffled looking down at my hands.
"I could have said more to him. I could have started talking to him earlier, been a better friend. But I didn't and I feel horrible." I ended.
I crawled under my bedsheets and put the covers over my head and sobbed quietly.
I felt like a part of me was missing, like there was only one thing that could make this all better... and I realized, it was Maya I needed.

•Maya•
There was only one person I needed right now to make it all better... I needed Riley.