Sickness AU [COMPLETED]

♡chapter fourteen♡

Honestly it was difficult to write this chapter. So I'm sorry if there are typos, I was blurred the whole time because of the tears.
I hope none of you have to endure such a horrible sickness and if you are know that you are in my prayers every night and that I have faith in you. Okay, here you go. And here's a box of tissues just in case.
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•Maya•
It was like the butterflies on the walls of were flying. Flying away from the depression of the waiting room.
I've been here too long. Here in this waiting room. Here in this hospital. Here without Riley holding my hand.

God I wish she was here right now. Here to tell me "I'm right here, Maya look at me princess, we're okay."
I'm tired of crying.
I'm tired of being on my knees hands folded tightly.
I'm tired of pacing in this waiting room.
I'm tired. I'm tired. I'm tired.

But I haven't slept since the ambulance rolled away. And I won't sleep till I see her again.

Topanga sat next to me, just as exhausted as I was, Cory and Auggie next to her.
On the other side of me was Katy and Shawn, Mary sleeping on his shoulder.
The sun was rising, shining a light on the quote beneath the butterflies.
"Count your rainbows, not your thunderstorms." -Alyssa Knight, Age 12.
I took out my phone taking a picture of the quote.

I got up going to the bathroom, staring myself in the mirror.
My eyes were puffy and my face was blotchy.
I stuck my hands under the water, washing my face.
I leaned over the sink water dripping off my face. I watched as a little water funnel formed sucking all the water to the drain, then looked back up in the mirror drying my face with my sleeve.
As I was putting my hair in a bun, I saw another quote on the mirror written in marker.
"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you." -Karen, age 7

"They're everywhere huh?"
I turned around seeing Topanaga standing behind me.
"Yeah."
She smiled and put her arm around me.
"They give you a bit of hope. I've been looking at them since we got here, and each one makes me smile. And makes me feel a little bit better."
I grinned and said "The one out in the waiting room is my favorite."
She weakly laughed. "That's my favorite too."

"I remember Riley used to say things like that, she used to always say whenever someone was sad 'if you want to be happy all the time, stay in your pajamas and watch cartoons all day.' I wish I would have gotten her saying that to Auggie on tape, the day after he was born when she came to visit him and he was crying because he was hungry."
I grinned and hugged Topanaga.
She sniffled and I knew she was crying.

"She's only 14, she's to young to be on her own up there. Right now she should be at home sleeping. Not here strapped to IV's and an oxegyn tube strapped to her face."
I started to cry myself.
"No child deserves to be in this much pain." She pulled back wiping away her face full of tears.
"And I can't help but remind myself, that I won't be able to see her get married to the girl she loves, and I won't be able to see the priceless look on her face when she has a child."

"But you'll have the memories, from when she would run around the house in a princess outfit, when she would stand on her daddy's shoes and they would dance together. Or when she made you cold spaghetti and was so proud of herself, and you couldn't help but eat it because she felt like she was on top of the world."

"Seems like just yesterday." Topanga smiled.
I hugged her again.
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The doctors told us that her lymph nodes were so swollen from the leukima, that it was difficult for her to breathe and she was loosing oxegyn. That's what was wrong with her.