The Jump

10. Suicide

The next morning, when my parents and Amanda came into the hospital room, they seemed way more depressed than usual and the kept whispering to each other. I heard a few words like: "She's gonna be so hurt... She was her best friend.....Lisa..." Lisa? What happened to Lisa? I quickly ran out of the hospital and went straight to Lisa's house. I went upstairs and saw that her parents were crying and hugging each other. I went closer to where they were standing and that's where I saw it.

Lisa hung herself with a belt. I stood there in shock. I didn't cry or anything. I just stood there. I didn't know what do or say. My heart broke into pieces. I saw a note on her bed and it said:

Dear Mom, Dad and Colton,
I've decided to end my life. I'm losing  my best friend/sister/other half. I can't sleep at night knowing that she's lying on the hospital bed, fighting for her life. So I've decided to let my self rest. Permanently. Don't cry guys, it was my time. I love you guys so much!
Your daughter and sister,
Lisa

This is all my fault... Lisa is dead, because of me! I can't believe it! I started crying and the tears just kept on spilling out. I walked up to Mr. and Mrs. Coleman. "I'm so sorry," I whispered. I walked out. It started raining and I just sat on the pavement staring at the cars zooming by. "Are you gonna do it or are you gonna chicken out? Lift your spirits high and keep fighting. Are you gonna face the music? Do or die! Oh oh oh..." I was singing Lisa's favorite song, Do or Die by the Originals.

I stopped halfway and put my face in my hands. I started sobbing. Just a few weeks ago, my life was peachy and now it's tearing apart very slowly... I stared at my pale hands. I was going to remain like this forever it seems.

I stood up from the pavement and walked to Tara's house. I went into her room and saw that her eyes were red. Tara is my other best friend and I was concentrating on Lisa so much that I forgot that Tara is going through a hard time as well coping with the coma situation.

I sat on the edge of the bed. Tara was lying down on the bed. I wanted to strike her hair and tell her that everything is going to be fine, that I'm gonna wake up, that everything will go back to normal.

She was staring at the ceiling and she seemed to be in deep thought. That's when she started speaking.

"Why, oh why is this happening to me? My best friend is in hospital fighting for her life and my other best friend just committed suicide. Why the fuck did this happen to me?! Huh? Why!"

She covered her face with her hands and started crying. I laid down next to her. I sang her favorite song. It always used to cheer her up. But she couldn't hear me.