Thank God You're Gay!

Chapter 7:

And now... introducing... for the first time ever...

Damien's POV:

I woke up as the sunlight made me squint my eyes.

‘Fuck Schooling!’ I thought.

I felt something moving under me. So I lifted the cover to check what it was.

Oh! It was Alex. I totally forgot about him sleeping with me.

He continued to snuggle up to me. He was still asleep though. Well! It seemed like he was asleep.

It was getting weird for me. I was frozen. Literally! My hands were like hanging as he put arms around my waist.

I tried to move away a little but then he kept holding onto me.

I let out a breath, giving up. He was warm though. Hmm… nobody has ever held me like this.

I firmly put my hand on his shoulder, making sure he wouldn’t wake up.

He didn’t react.

So I slowly wrapped my arms around his body. Not too tight though.

Hmm… I closed my eyes and smile a little.

This is nice!

Last night I could barely sleep. He was such a baby when he clung onto me the whole night just because of the wind blowing. Not that I minded.

It was kinda nice to feel like somebody needs you and depends on you. It’s like I was his hero or something.

But of course, I didn’t like hold him to make him feel safe or anything cuz’ that would be weird. I mean considering we were both guys and we were sleeping on the same bed. I just pretended like I was sleeping instead.

I could still remember the night before. He looked so funny in my clothes. In fact, he looked funny doing anything. He looked so funny when he’s yelling or screaming or laughing or talking. Even the way he thought the movie was scary is funny. I practically had to help not to laugh for the whole time.

I laughed in silence just thinking about the night before.

But then, I sighed.

What is wrong with me? I’ve been having these weird feelings since I first met him, which it’s like only a few days ago.

And I have to tell you. Damien Sanders don’t feel.

Seriously. I don’t feel anything. For anyone. Not ever. Yeah. It's not like I don't want to feel. I just don't. I can't.

And this Alex guy just popped out of nowhere and made me feel… something. Something. I didn’t even know what it was. I knew that I’d never had any feelings for the girls I’d dated. Well, I mean, fucking them was great but… I felt nothing. Nothing but orgasm. No one, until then, was special enough to make me feel anything.

Was it okay for a boy to have feelings for another boy?

I don’t know. I mentally shrugged.

But if I did have feelings for him then… what would they be?

Sexual feeling?

Eww!!! Hell no!

Friends’ feelings?

Maybe. And ‘maybe’ was good enough for me.

Maybe the feelings I’ve been having for him is just simply bromance. Well, it was definitely different from the bromance I have with Ben and Eli.