Time

XV

Aris

I sat in the car staring at the building in front of me wondering if I should even go through with this. With everything that happened with Nautica I completely forgot about the meeting with my lawyer, the detective and Sin. This would be my first time seeing her since that night and I don't know if I'm ready for the emotions that it'll bring up.

The meeting started 5 minutes ago but I couldn't pull myself to get out of the car.

I didn't want her to keep having this control over me. I want to be free. I want to be happy. I deserve to be happy.

I took a few more deep breaths before turning my car off and opening the door.  I grabbed my purse and stood up closing the door. I looked at my reflection in the car and fixed my cardigan before smoothing down my middle part. I had on a cream fitted crop top that stopped just above my belly button. I had a pair of high waisted forest green leather pants on that came up to my shirt to cover up any exposed skin. My gold pointed heels peeked out from my wide pants leg making the color pop. I threw on a thick brown crocheted cardigan that draped down past my butt. The gold jewelry on my face, the gold rings and bracelets tied the whole look together.

I locked my doors and made my way into the police department. I made my way to the receptionist desk and let them know what I was here for and she had an officer escort me back to one of the interrogation rooms. I took a deep breath and asked him to wait before opening the door.

be strong. be confident. you're okay. it's going to be okay. it's almost over. I kept repeating it over and over as I stood with my eyes closed.

I finally opened my eyes and let him know he could open the door. As I stepped in the room all eyes turned to me as the room fell silent. My heart started speeding up, my anxiety getting high. My lawyer greeted me as I took the seat beside her. I turned towards Sin and the detective and took in her appearance. She looked terrible.

Her eyes were dark with deep bags under her eyes. She wore a black beanie with the khaki colored jail suit. She stared as me as I took my attention away from her and looked at the detective as he started to speak.

"Thank you for coming in, I know this isn't easy. Per Ms. Lakeham's plea agreement she wanted to include an apology-" before he could finish talking Sin interrupted him.

"I'm sorry, I never meant to hurt you" she croaked out.

I scoffed rolling my eyes. "Sorry?" I chuckled, my leg shaking under the table. "You think I give a fuck about a sorry bitch? Were you sorry when you repeatedly raped me? Were you sorry when you blacked my eyes? Were you sorry when you broke my ribs?" I asked staring her directly in her eyes, feeling tears building up in my eyes.

"I just-"

"NO!" i snapped. "You don't get to apologize! You don't get to explain, You don't get to say shit to me! I came here to be done with you, not hear anything that you have to say. You ruined my life, you're evil." i told her. "I have no more tears to shed over you, no more fucks to give. You could die right now and I'd jump for joy so if that's all I'm here for I'd like to go tend to more important things."

"I can assure yo-" the detective started to say.

I turned to my attorney tuning him out, "I'm going to head out." i said before getting up and leaving.

I cant believe they wasted my time for this bullshit. My attorney would be hearing a mouthful from me later on too because she should've communicated to me that this wasn't something that was mandatory for me to attend.