Give me love (Cash fanfic Boyxboy)

Twenty One - Please

Trigger warning😔 if any of you guys feel alone you can always talk to me<3

POV; Nash (3 weeks later)

It's June 7th and I haven't done anything since, being in the hospital.

I got put back on my antidepressants after everything that happened.

My mom gives them to me every morning to make sure I take.

But what she doesn't know is that I haven't been taking them.

Cameron and I haven't really been talking lately.

Well more like he has tried to talk to me but I ignore him. He has come over here a few times but every time I told my mom I didn't want to see him.

I just don't think I'm ready for such a serious relationship.

Besides he's going off to college in September.

Where?

I don't know and I don't care to know.

I get out of my bed to take a shower.

I slump to my bathroom and turn on scorching hot water.

As I'm washing my hair I see my razor blade.

I pick it up and study it for a bit.

I bring it to my wrist slowly.

I drag the blade across my wrist.

I feel, free.

Like I can breath.

I make three cuts.

Adding to the the three I already have from the one week mark, then the two week mark.

It's for the number of weeks it's been since I lost my baby.

Lost all feeling.

Lost myself.

Lost everything.

I watch as the blood runs down my arm.

I put my wrist under the burning water, enjoying the sting.

POV; Cameron

I haven't seen Nash since he lost the baby.

He won't talk to me.

His mom said he barely even talks to her.

His cousin is staying with them for the summer.

Eva, the one who was there during Christmas.

Her and Nash have always been close.

Even she can't get him to talk.

He was put back on his meds for depression but I doubt he's been taking them.

I'm going to stay here in L.A. for college but Nash doesn't know that.

He won't give me the chance to tell him that.

I have plan. I love him too much to give up on him.

I knock on the door.

It early morning around the time he would be given his meds.

Eva answers the door.

"Go on up." She says moving out the way.

I run up the stairs.

I see Nash's mom walking to his room.

"Elizabeth wait." I call out to her.

She turns around.