The Opposite Fan Girl

One: My Story

I won't make myself a bad role model to younger ones. I will never bow down to one of the people who just smirk and laugh and played you like a puppet. I will never be a fan. If I were asked, I will just tell them that I'm always be the 'opposite' fan girl.

Are you always that number one fan girl that everyone knows? Are you always following that girl/guy until the day you're dead? Do you have this kind of feeling to you? Well, if you're asking me from my past, I would honestly say...Yes.

I'm Jovana Sofia Livic (a.k.a. Jovana) the twenty-four year old Vice-President of Victoria's Palace Hotel found in San Francisco, California which is one of the first-class hotels in the whole world. People say I am very beautiful because of my Brazilian beauty that I have in my generations in which they are tall, pale-skinned, and lastly we have the intelligence. When I was thirteen, students frequently voted for me as the representative of our school for some upcoming beauty contests. Not to say much, but I have won only twice. I was angry of the thing of not winning but my brother , Enrico Livic, who's always by my side, told me to accept the fact that I'm losing because not everything is ours. So, cases like that, I accept it. I accept my mistakes because I know I can learn from it. But there was one mistake that I can't ever forget in my life. It was the most tragic of rejecting your own brother.

As what I have answered a while ago"...Yes", that was true. I had been a fan to an actor named "Christopher Pains" since I was five years old. Very young right? Because I am stupid that time and I don't know anything about the world. He was two years younger than me and he was first having his appearance at the age of three when he was joining a reality TV show, Small One, which is one of the most popular kids TV in California. When I was small, I used to describe him as a cute person, handsome, eh whatever you call them and from all I have remembered in my memory is that he has plenty of girls behind him. At a young age, he used to have lots of girlfriends, dates, whatever. I hate talking about it because it irritates my ears. Because he has lots of girls, I still believe to myself that I will really have the chance to meet him again. I really hope a little about it because I had never been to one of his appearances in each event. Even one. I'll just watch him online on YouTube on the different appearances that he may have. How sad of that. But still, I have the little hope inside that I would get to meet him personally.

There was one day, one chance, one single mistake that has been put up on that very single minute. I will have the chance to meet the actor. But that was sad.

Flashback

It was evening when I came upon the road of April Avenue and was raising my hand up high to get a cab. It was a very busy road wherein people passed by or just stood there beside me to get a cab too. I want to go there! I want to see him! I thought as my legs felt so shaky and my forehead’s beginning to sweat. But there was no luck, when I noticed that there are many people hiring cabs too. I scratched the back of my dark hair when I thought I had hired a cab when someone stood in front of me.

"Hey! Lady! Get out of my way! I'm the first one to hire!" Her pretty face seemed pretty angry when she told me with her chin up.

I want him! I want him! I want to go there right away! I thought as I let her go inside the cab right away as I continued to scratch the back of my head looking confused. My heart started to thumped loudly like I wanted to see him.  I was twelve years old that time and I still don't understand my childhood behavior like that.

Finally, a yellow cab appeared and I held the big, brown bag up high as I walked in front of the cab. The cab still continued to move as I noticed lights are surrounding me. I closed my eyes hoping for it to stop. Please just stop! I want him! I like him! I would die for him!