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50. Out of Misery

Chapter Fifty - Out of Misery

"Hey, Becks." Sean stepped out of his car. He wasn't wearing his usual friendly face, and it made me wonder if he remembered last night. Of course he did. He looked part angry because I hadn't kissed him and part guilty because he'd tried to force me to.

"All good?" he asked with a straight face.

"We need to talk."

He rounded his car and leaned against it, crossing his arms over his chest like he already knew what was coming. "About?"

"I..." I trailed off right after uttering the first syllable, forgetting my speech. Yes, I'd prepared a speech to tell him everything in a way that would anger him the least.

"You're breaking up with me, aren't you?"

Direct confrontation again. I felt a single drop of sweat trail down my back as I studied his face. He didn't look surprised or disappointed. In fact, it felt like he would've broken up with me anyway if I hadn't said it first.

I bit down on my lip, barely hearing my own voice when I said, "Yes."

But then, I finally saw the fight and anger in his eyes, despite which, he asked calmly, "Is this about what I did last night?"

I licked my lips once. "I wish I could say yes and just put this all on you, but you deserve better. No, this isn't just about last night."

He looked baffled. "What else did I do?"

"Not you. Me."

All colour drained from his face. "What do you mean?"

I hesitated for a second, then sighed out loud. "I know I have to tell you this, but I don't want you to hate me."

As something dawned on him, his lips curled with distaste, and he shot me a dirty look like he already knew what it was about. "Did you sleep with someone else? Wait!" His eyes widened, and he snapped around to Matt's house. "You slept with him, didn't you?"

"No!" I grabbed his arm and tugged at it only to have his glare fall back on me. The look of pure disgust in his eyes made me flinch, but I knew I couldn't back down now. "I did not sleep with anyone, I promise you that. I-I just... made out with someone."

His disappointment toned down a bit, but it was still there as he demanded, "Who?"

I shrugged slightly in embarrassment, cutting a glance at Matt's house.

"I fucking knew it!" he snarled. "How could he do this?" His eyes were full of rage as he started to angrily march across the street and I found myself desperately catching up with him to block his way.

"I kissed him, Sean. I was the one who started it and Matt stopped me. He didn't let anything happen."

He froze.

And then, betrayal and hurt flashed in his eyes and in that moment, I realized how horrible of a person I was for hurting a nice person like him. He took in a deep breath, shut his eyes and when he opened them, they were full of disappointment and disbelief.

"I asked you, Rebekah. I asked you so many fucking times and you lied to me each time. How could you do that?"

My gaze met the ground as I could feel my cheeks turning red with embarrassment. I'd never been the bad person before. And being confronted by him made me feel disgusted with myself. I could feel unshed tears stinging my eyes but I tried my best to blink them back. I didn't want to cry my way out of it by having him pity me. I'd wronged him and I knew that.

"I'm sorry, Sean. I really am. This is all my fault."

"Yes, it is!" he snapped, stepping closer. "You cheated on me. Unbelievable! You never deserved me."