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kathryn pov:
i woke up in the middle of the night jai wasnt otp we had had a argument last night, and yeah i texted her "jai you up" with a period. and yeah i sat in my bed lost because we arguing about everyday and its starting to aggravate me, it dont even be nobody fault, it just be the lack of communication.
jai called me
"hello" she said
"hey jai" i said
"can you not do the first name" she said
"hm yes baby" i said
"can you just like not im tired of arguing its too late for all of that please" she said
"you don't even know whats we was arguing about man" she said
"who dont jai" i said
"you kathryn" she said
"fine goodnight jai"i said hanging up
she called back i watched in rang
and silenced it, she texted goodnight and she love me
i thumbs up her message
she called again i just couldn't pick up
i called my bestfriend
"hello alexis" i said
"hello my beautiful bestfriend" she said
"you busy" i asked
"no why wsp" she said
"okay so me and jai got into a bed argument about communication, time management, relationship and shit" i said
"okay what about it" she asked
"so i told jai she dont know how to communicate or talk through issues without smoking she said its hard or wtv okay i understand but you shouldnt have to be fucking fried to understand something like the fuck? i dont really understand then time management like we dont even have to see each other but damn some days i just wanna talk to her why cant she just be my girlfriend like then i asked her do she want a relationship or just a fuck buddy? and she dead as looked at me and said oh so you think all we do is fuck. and i kinda felt bad cs i seen her eyes, and she started talking and stop and said okay and went to sleep" i said looking at the build-a-bear she gave me
"just breathe okay, like i dont think she wanna hurt you but i think your hurting her, and jai doesnt look so good have you like checked on her, its not like her to tell you she gonna fix something then not do it, shes usually pretty good at that but also maybe you can approach the topic differently and try to be more gentle and have a calmer conversation maybe in person hand holding full attention especially with jai because you know shes not a emotional vulnerable person
"oh shit what if i caused her to fully shut down on me because i got frustrated i denied her calls didnt text back what if she sleep" i say
"go to her and talk, you know how she feels about you, just try okay no matter you can fix it mama, yall got it okay call me back and update me" she said
"okay i will thank you" i said hanging up
i called her she picked up
it was silent but i heard her tv and her soft breathing
"hello there pretty girl" i said softly
"hm" she said
"listen ik i messed up i hurt your feelings you just gotta lemme in okay i dont wanna argue im sorry, i should have talked to you not at you, im sorry okay" i said
"i forgive you" she said softy above a whisper
"i hear the hurt in your voice" i said
"im fine im just tired" she said
"i love you" i said
"hm i love you more" she said
"what you watching" i asked
"bojack horseman" she said
"goodnight in going to sleep hang up if you feel like it" she said turning on SpongeBob
she moved the ipad and rolled over
"baby can you come here please" i say
she looked at me and looked at me
"im sorry i hurt you mylove, i dont wanna go to sleep upset" i said
"okay get in your car and come over and show me, give me action not no damm words kathryn show me please, because your just hurting me, if you want women and show something else than dreams and fairy tails" she said
she rolled back over
i got up got in the car and drove to her house i knew where her spare key was and i walked in, i look at her i put her ipad on the desk, and laid next to her.
"im glad you came" she said
"me too" i said
"im sorry baby" i said
"i mean what i said about forgiving but i can't forget it hurt me mama, i don't want you thinking that you know that" she said rolling over still not making eye contact
"i know baby but i promise i don't think that, i know you're genuine mama" i say laying next to her
"come here" she say
i lay next to her and she wrap her arms around me just breathe that's all no talking itv was peaceful
"lets try talking using physical touch mama" she say
"were just talking no need to yell or anything lets just lay here and talk mama" i said
we talked it out and we didnt yell it was good i felt peaceful talking to her for once
"listen lets just try again mama lets not argue its okay i love you baby come here" i said pulling her close to me
"give me a kiss please" jai said looking at me
"i'll never let go mylove" i said kissing her
i felt her smile into my chest
"lets just fix us i dont wanna lose you" she said looking at me holding me close tight
"get some sleep we got school in the morning" i said rubbing her head
"i love you babygirl" jai said kissing my cheek so much
"i love you more mylover" i said kissing her head and kissing her lips