Stars in the Darkness

31. Plot Twist

The question Jordan asks makes me feel, uncomfortable and in the center attention. Kyle's eyes focused on me, Jordan's confused by this.

He knows the truth, but Kyle is confused and in the dark. He knows absolutely nothing about me being a YouTuber.

This may turn into sour milk fast.

"Yeah, I'm going, I like the bands too, psh," that is true, even Pierce the Veil is playing and I want to chill with Vic, then Jaime, because they both are amazing and adorable.

Jordan gives a confused face, I shake my head lightly. I don't want to talk about it with Kyle around, I will tell him when the time is right.

"I feel like there is something not being said here.." Kyle glances at both Jordan and I. I come up with something witty, but sadly, it was true.

"Yeah, your flies down," I say, literally pointing down at him. You know, right down there, yeah.

"Are you being serious Rosalina?" Kyle asks, he doesn't believe me? That's, just.. Rude.

"You don't believe me? Do you want me to pull it up instead?" I laugh, yes I know I do weird things, but I think that made Kyle think twice about me. It's in his eyes.

"N-no, I just, fine," he just pulls up his zipper like he is in the bathroom, completely normal.

"You just what?" Jordan asks, Kyle shrugs his shoulders shyly. He is nervous? He is in front of his girlfriend and best friend, why is he nervous?

"I just feel like, just something is wrong, besides the fly..." You know that time when you get that sudden urge to puke because your that nervous and your nerves are shot? Yeah.

That's how I feel right now.

I'm going to try not too puke, especially on a public bus. Aw, that's nasty.

But there's something oddly familiar about this right now..

"Your hungry?" Jordan asks crosses his legs.

"No, Rosalina and I just got back from a movie.."

"Are you.."

"Feeling out of the circle? Yes."

If the sound of an atomic bomb went off right now, it would be the perfect timing. For that bomb nailed me, hard and leaving me in shambles.

I know now that Kyle feels uncertain.

He knows he is missing out on something, and I hate when this happens to people. It's happening to my freaking boyfriend and I'm the one causing it!

Yeah, cause your stupid and keep everything too yourself.

Not too mention, you've been lying to Kyle for the whole time you've been dating.

Why not just breakup with him? He doesn't deserve you?

"Maybe..." I mutter to myself, at least I thought it was too myself. But was I wrong.

"Maybe what Rosie?" Kyle looks at me, I didn't notice where my hands were but my strongest was wrapped around my wrist and was becoming white.

My hands are covered in cold sweat. This isn't the first time this has happened..

"Whoa, whoa," Jordan pulls my hand off, "Kyle take a step back,"

I know what Jordan's doing, he must have seen it too.

Panic attack mode was activated.

The bus came to a complete halt, the driver slams on his break hard, the door flies open and I, not being in my right mind, take off.

I know the houses, were close to the park which means, we are very close to my house, I need space right now.

That's not all you need...

I shake my head, don't think that, not now..

But that's thought lingers in my mind, I bust through the door, okay maybe not literally but I open the door with full force. I dash by Nyle with some girl in his room and I lock myself in.

The door, the windows, even the closet.

I sit down on my bed and stare, stare at the black screen before me. I can hear Jordan and Kyle yelling my name outside, I stay still, I don't want people around me right now.

I just need time and space, I need to be alone!

My phone starts to blow up with texts from both the guys, then there's another name added, it's Johnnie. I shut my phone off and crawl under my blanket, forcing myself to go to sleep.

It is hard, but worth it.

Maybe not as much as the first time though..

Kyle's P.O.V

No matter how loud or shrill Jordan and I yell, we get not answer.

"I.. I don't get it Jordan," I say staring down at the ground, I hold her Penny Board like I'm holding her hand. Close and tight, I wish I could hold her right now.

"It's okay, she obviously didn't want to come out..yet.."

"Wait what?" I say shocked, Jordan shakes his head at my reply.

"Not like that 'coming out'," he slaps his forehead, pulling out his phone he makes a quick call, once he finishes he looks back at me, "I'm talking about her past and such, man.."

"I know, I haven't heard much but it had to be hard-"

"No, not her bullying past! Her whole past!" Jordan yells, he covers his mouth quickly, he says what now.

"What did you say?" I turn to face him, he removes his hand from his mouth and starts walking away.

"Come on man, there's something you have too know.."

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I find myself at Jordan's house, his mother kindly answers the door for us, she must know me for she gives a warm smile. Or maybe because Jordan called her before we left.

That makes most sense.

"Mom, is it okay if we talk down in the basement?"

"Of course Jordan," she leads us to the basement, we walk down the woolen stairs and sit down on the couches, "anything you'd like to eat or drink, give me a yell."

Once she leaves Jordan pulls out his laptop, guessing once he has his thing, he sits next to me.

"Do you know a YouTuber, by the name of MissTwiliaAster.." He asks, I shake my head honestly. I think I see where this is going..

"N-no.." I reply simply, Jordan shifts around on the couch uncomfortably.

"Okay, well, she is, Rosalina and she is known well by a lot of people, subscribers I mean, and she has told her most of her past on here.."

"Y-yeah what about it?"

I sound like the worthless boyfriend right now, I have listened to what she has told me about herself, but why did she have to hide this side of her?

"Do you know what happened on her sixth birthday?" Shaking my head, Jordan lets out a nervous sigh.

"She basically died."