Stars in the Darkness

38. Pancakes and Fear

To start the morning off, I roll out of bed, with a loud thunk! That's not a nice way to wake up, I'll tell you that much.

"What happened?" I sit up and hold my elbow, since that was the first body part that hit the floor, "ow.. Damon.."

There comes another body on top of mine, didn't expect that either. Couldn't be just have rolled over to the side of the bed and replied? Instead of rolling completely off the bed on to me?

"Morning," he mumbles as he lays on my back, letting out a heavy sigh I push him off of me, "eh, what was that for?"

"You were laying on me Damon, I'm not a mattress." He beams me a smile and stands up, not straight but having quite trouble holding his balance.

"You were comfortable though," I feel hear come to my cheeks, the only other person who I've gotten close to was Kyle and he said similar things. Or else it's just a guy thing that they like to say..

"Oh shut up.." I stand up and fall right back down on the bed, crawling up to the pillows and trying to fall back asleep.

"You wish, you can never get rid of me!" Damon says proudly, I roll my eyes at him. He is stupid, but a good stupid, he makes things worth it.

"Can you go make-"

"Pancakes?" I give him a horror state, being dramatic of course, he must have read my mind, that's scary but yesterday I did ask for pancakes also..

Today, today is this first day of Warped.

That means I'm going to see everyone, mostly everyone. Most of all, Kyle.. Damon has told me over and over that it will be okay, I think he has been talking to him behind my back but, I guess that's okay. I did kind of run away..Kyle being my boyfriend and such..

"Yeah of course!" I say smiling, I mumble under my breath, "mind reader.."

"You say what?"

"Nothing!" I reply jumping up and knocking down everything I touch on my way to the kitchen.

"Oh, I see.." He says laughing, he grabs the mix, water and some extra banana's. For banana pancakes are always the best, personal opinion, but it's so true..

"Then you will be able to explain why you knocked over half of my apartment," he gives me one of those goofy grins, the 'I know your hiding something and what is it' grin.

Sighing I can't help but tell him, it's not worth keeping in. I mean, really, if I keep it inside won't it just keep building and that would be the worst thing ever.

"I'm just thinking about today Damon, seeing Kyle again," I mumble, tears starting to form at my lashes, don't cry in front of Damon, it's stupid and weak..

"Shhh," he quickly paces over to my side and wraps me in his arms, rocking me back and forth, "everything with go fine, you two will reconnect and he'll love you even more, I promise you.." Damon kisses the messed up hair I have on my head.

Fumbling some curse word I wipes the tears away from my eyes, I can't have another attack, not with Damon around.

"I hope so.." I whisper, Damon gives a comforting squeeze and starts to feed me pancakes.

"After this, would you like to explore a little bit?" I nod my head, red eyes still shining through though.

"Yeah, that would be nice," I say with my mouth full of banana deliciousness.

"Alright, that's my girl," he leads me into the bedroom, pulls out my luggage and chooses my outfit for me. I thought he would choose something mismatching and horrid but, his taste was fine, and I mean very fine.

"Hope you don't mind wearing a tank top today, with extremely ripped jeans and all black converse.." He says giving me the neatly stacked clothes. Shaking my head I gladly enter the bathroom and change.

"Does it look good?" I ask, walking down a very crooked invisible catwalk, striking odd poses.

"Oh me gosh girl! You look fabulous!" Damon squeals in his valley girl voice, I laugh and grab his wrist.

"Then let's go girl! Let's not waste time!"

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Waiting at a red light was always my enemy, no matter what situation or where we are currently. Mumbling words and annoying sighs I find myself staring ahead of us,

You ever have that feeling when you have this huge déjà vu moment, the whole 'didn't I see or witness this before'. The car coming towards us from the other direction, at the same speed.

That's when it breaks. Memories. Pure horror memories. Screeching wheels, the sound of my fathers grunts as he tried to move out of the way, bright lights blinding both of us. The fire..

The fire that started in the back of the car but my father got us both out in time before the explosion. My breathing launches up drastically, clinging on to the one thing that was next to me.

Damon's hand.

Don't get me wrong, I'm terrified. It was so long ago, but so vivid and real right now that I almost jumped out of the car that second. Of course Damon took my hand in his and held me down against the seat.

"Rosalina, Rosalina!" I look around drastically, my mind is a rush, seeing flames everywhere, engulfing everything and everyone.

"Damon! We have to leave! The cars going to explode!" I say freaking out, my mouth got out the words and Damon, surprisingly, understood. He holds my shoulders down and looks at me straight in the eyes, contact is straight on.

"Rosalina," he strokes my red, heated cheeks and leans forward, kissing my forehead, though I honestly thought he was going to kiss me at first, "you're okay, you're with me, nothing going to happen to you.."

I don't know how, but it was that sudden click and everything just went calm. No vision, no memories, nothing.

Just Damon and me.

I mumble over words, trying to think of what to say in apology to him, I probably made him worry so much in those few seconds, or at least they felt like seconds.. The suddenly spazz, I didn't see it coming either..

"It's okay Rosie, just tell me when you feel something is going to happen again.." He says softly, I did scare him.

My mouth wouldn't move, it wouldn't let me say anything..

'I'm sorry Damon..'