"I'm not perfect. Never have been. Never will be"
I was surprised to see Dakota standing on my doorstep at 4 in the afternoon on a Thursday afternoon. I just kind of stood there looking at him weirdly. i was trying to figure out why he was here. but he finally spoke, "you weren't at school." he said and glanced down at my rolled up sleeves and had a sharp intake of breath. i quickly pulled my sleeves down and walked away from the door. i hoped he would just leave but i hoped wrong.
I was sitting on the couch with i pillow to my face when i felt someone sit down next to me. i knew it was Dakota so i didn't bother looking up. i felt his arms wrap around my shoulders and he pulled me to his chest. we just sat there, him holding me and me to shaken up to care.
When I finally stopped sobbing, Dakota let me go and handed me a tissue from the box next to him. I quietly thanked him and we just sat there. He reached into his bag in front of him and pulled something out. A journal, my journal. The one I was hunting all over to find.
"Where did you get that!?" I asked, snatching it from his hand.
"I picked it up when you ran into me at school, I forgot I had it, and I found it again last night. I was going to give it back at school, but you weren't there. So here." He answered me motioning towards the journal I already had in my hand.
He sighed and then said, "I looked through it Emily. I read a few pages. Like one about you having a crush on me. Another about suicide. One about cuts on your arms. I was hoping it wasn't true...." he trailed off.
I didn't know what else to say, I just whispered the words, "I'm sorry," and felt tears start to run down my face again.
YOU ARE READING
The suicide diary
Teen FictionWhat happens when the book holding all her secrets is found by the popular boy at school. he now holds the key to her life. the things nobody else knows.