Ana - Our Demons Book #1

Chapter Four - Listening To Ana

I must have fallen to sleep again because I woke up just before my alarm for school was set to go off and wake me. 

I reflect on the dream I had last night and try to think the skinny convocation must have been in my dream, uncontrolled by me. 

I trudge downstairs to see my dad making breakfast in the kitchen.

"Morning Amy, do you want a pancake with syrup like you have each morning" He asks.

"No wonder your so fat Amy, do you know how many calories that pancake is let alone the syrup too, I hate the thought of eating that, say no." Ana orders.

I hesitate and think of the glorious golden syrup satiating my taste buds accompanied by a smooth buttery pancake, my mouth starts watering at the thought.

"No, I am not hungry I will eat something at school" I lie to him.

"Ok more for us" he says.

Wow what a concerned father I have, I am so lucky I have a parent that cares.

I walk outside the door on my way to the bus stop and my stomach won't stop rumbling reminding me that I skipped breakfast today. One of many more to come I tell myself.

"The first three days are the hardest" Ana reassures me.

I sit on the bus on my iphone and I look at thinspo on Tumblr and Pintrest.

"You can be them" Ana encourages.

"I will be them" I answer

As I say that some people look at me as if I am crazy, oops I forgot Ana was just someone in my head...An imaginary friend as she said.

Some boys look over my shoulder and nudge some of the popular girls, and says

"Oh how cute, Chubby wants to be as sexy and thin as that pfft like that will ever happen" He scoffs at me. Achieving several giggles from the girls he nudged.

"Prove him wrong, just prove him wrong" Ana tries to comfort me.

"Damn right I will" I respond, in my head of course.

Remember Amy, the first three days are the hardest.