I just don't know // Outerbanks Fanfic

baby daddy???

"What, that's not possible we always used protection." Rafe says from his seat beside me.

"Obviously fucking not you asshole." John b says from the other side of me and I throw my weak hand up.

"Can we wait until we're out of a hospital to do this please." They both nod and I look at the doctor.

"I couldnt have been far along right if I didn't know?" She shakes her head and sighs

"I'm surprised you didn't know actually considering you were almost three months along." I gasp and so does that father of my baby.

"Oh my god." Jj says from his seat by the window and he stands up.

"Jj." Is all i say before he walks out the door.

"I'll give you guys a minute to talk about this." The nurse says before leaving with the click of a door breaking the silence.

John b is rubbing his face. He looks both angry and confused.

"John b" I say lightly to try to get him a little calmer.

"No, I knew this shit would happen bea. You're reckless and irresponsible. You were pregnant with jjs baby." I freeze

Rafe slams his fist in to the wall and yells. "FUCK" he turns to us and grabs my hand.

"Tell me he's lying. Tell me jj isn't the father baby please." I look him in the eyes and I know he knows the truth.

"We used protection everytime, you and jj didn't." He says slowly like he's realizing everything.

"Baby please, I still love you." I say and squeeze his hand. I didn't fully mean it.

"I have to go, I'll call you." He leaves and John b stands as well and starts pacing the room.

"How, when, why would you get pregnant bea?" I shake my head and sit up.

"I didn't try to, it happened once where we didn't use anything and I guess it just happened." I say and he sits down again

"How are you gonna handle this. Your not gonna have a kid anymore so you need to figure out what you want." I know what he's saying and I understand.

"I dont know yet jb, I mean i just found out I was pregnant with jj, my ex's baby, while my boyfriend was in the same room as him." I bury my face in my hands and John b snaps.

"I dont know what your planning to do with your boy drama but I'm putting you on birth control." John b says as he goes out to call the doctor back.

"John b." He points at me. "End of discussion I'm not letting this happen again, I'm getting the nurse back here." Before he walks out i yell again.

"At least I'm not pregnant." He stops dead in his tracks and looks at me without blinking.

"What. The fuck. Did you just say?" I'm almost scared to repeat myself but I don't have to because he slams the door and walks back over to me.

"Your not pregnant because you were fucking stabbed dude, not because you took a pill or even used a fucking condom which should have been used either way." He breaths heavy and continues.

"I won't do it again without using a condom I promise, I just dont want to be on birth control." I say in hopes he trusts me enough.

He doesn't

"No, bea that's the point. If you have to get stabbed or shot to get rid of a baby you didn't know you were growing inside of you. I can't trust you wont do this again and fuck up with a guy." He looks concerned for me but also worried about everything that's happened.

I decide to go with his plan so he'll hop off my back about it finally.

"Fine. I'll go on birth control but don't expect me to not go out with any guys at all." I say and point at him. "And. If you ever get Sarah pregnant I'll tell you the same thing you told me." He nods and hugs me.

"That will not happen. But you are 16 almost 17 so I can't tell you not to hook up with anybody, just don't let it be my friends unless you want to go to their funeral the next day. Ok?" He pays my head and stands to leave.

"Where are you going?" He openes the door and waves the nurse down.

"I'm getting your birth control." 

Once John b leaves jj walks back in while holding his eye.

"Shit Jay what happened." He points behind him

"I saw your brother outside." Thar bitch.

"Are you ok." He nods and sits down next to me.

"I deserved it for 'knocking his baby sister up' " he said with air quotes to mock my brother.

"Rafes mad huh." He points to the hole in the wall.

"Yeah but I'm not talking to him right now. The doctor said lay off the stress and he's just that."  I lay my head back and sigh

"So...we were gonna be parents." He says in the tone of a question.

"I killed somebody jay." I look in his eyes and he knows me too well cause he walks to my and grabs my hand.

"You didn't know, you weren't responsible for his or her death." He kisses my forehead and it's not a sexual thing but he made me calm with it.

"Hey I heard your looking for birth control. I can get you started on the pills right after your cleared tommorow." We thank her and I go to sleep.