It's the summer time and I'm home from college. My school is about 2 hours away from home. It's late and I'm walking to my building. When some dude starts walking right next to me.
" Move over so I can walk on the other side of you"
I did just as he said so I'm walking on the inner side of the sidewalk and he is right by the parked cars.
"Ria you don't look happy to see your boy"
I stopped walking and looked at him. I know he saw my face go from happy to confused to sad to mad and just blank.
"Why would I be happy to see someone who ignores my text/calls and everything else?"
" I'm sorry baby girl. What we have is complicated and I'm not what's best for you"
"What exactly do we have? To me it's just a broken friendship."
I left him standing there and I continued the walk to my building but he caught up with me. He walked the way with me got in the elevator and off at the same floor. Walked to my door he watched me go in and he went into his crib. Did I mention he lived right next door to me.
By the way that's Jody. He was my very first friend and best friend. I wish he could have been my first everything but he wasn't. My phone went off
JoMoney: Goodnight RiMoney. Hope you get some rest and who said you could be out so late? Cause I sure didn't.
I put my phone on the charger and took a shower. While I was in there I thought about how much a role Jody played in my life.
Whatever we had taught me to never let someone so unimportant play an important role in your life. You are the one that determine your life. Don't be foolish.
Ya want to know more about Jody and I don't ya?
Jody is 2 years older than me. I'm 21 and he is 23. That man has been arrested 2-4 times in his whole life. He doesn't have a diploma. I want so much more for him but it doesn't help.
So I practically known him all my life. He has lived next door to me. He is one of the few dudes in the building that is close to me. But yet he has managed to get farther than all of them. I used to have a crush on him. Especially when we were growing up, but he had his eyes on a friend that I had. We used to all hang out and play all the time. We also used to 3 way and talk all night.
I remember this one time I was on the phone with them and I cut myself. I never realized I did it until I saw the blood. I told them bye and Ma took me to the hospital. I had to get stitches for the first and last time.
I never told them what happened that night cause after that I cut them off.
What happened?
Ma asked why Jody was always asking and calling for me. I told her so that he could talk to my friend. Jody said he wanted to see and talk to me. So he was cut off. I know the reason was stupid but I was young. After that his and my brother friendship grew.
I seriously ignored Jody for years. I didn't like him so much that I never noticed when he was locked up. The craziest thing is that I was cool with his family and he was cool with mine.
Everyone thought that we had a bad break up. If only they knew. After my first year in college I came home and wanted to make things right with him. I knocked on his door one day. He answered and he just looked at me.
He let me in
"Look we are to old to be playing games. So I am sorry. We can at least speak when we see each other"
He smiled
"Ight I can do that"
Do ya know every time that man saw me he said hi. He could have walked passed me 6 times and all 6 times he said hi. But that summer we grew close. I actually hung out one night in front of the building with him and some people we knew. It was cool, even when it was just us 2. He walked me to the building and he left.
I told him how I felt and things just been kind of strained. He barely comments on my pictures on Instagram anymore. He leaves me on read all the time.
That's just life but I hope Jody knows I won't be here waiting.
