Coming Outta The Locker Room (BoyxBoy)

Explaining My LIfe.

This is my 1st BoyxBoy love story. I have written BoyxBoy rape but this is a love story. Please give it a chance. Thank you! :)

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I wake up early in the morning on Monday to get ready for school. I walk into the bathroom and wash my face and brush my teeth. I look in the mirror. I see a masked person inside those blue eyes. I can't help but hide who I really am. If my friends, family, and team mates found out.... I'm done for.

Yes I am gay. I have been gay for at least 4 years. Well I actually though I was always gay but I just accepted it when I was in 9th grade. I have kelp it a secret since then and I plan on keeping it that way.

Still inside it hurts. I wish I could be myself. Not what everyone sees. Everyone sees me as the star senior quarterback at Niles McKinley High School. Who has perfect grades, beautiful life, a hot girlfriend and is happy.

I'm really deeply sad inside my heart. I have good grades because I work. My life isn't perfect by far. My father hates gays with a passion but my mother is a different story.

She's a sweet lady. My father had an affair about 3 years back. That was a mess. My life far from perfect. I'm gay and can't say, how is that perfect?

My girlfriend. The cheerleader captain bitch. That's it too. Cheer Captain bitch! We met freshman year... I only dated her because I needed a cover up. A rumor got out that I was gay.

So yeah I got scared. Then I guess the hottest girl in school Amy Adams asked me out. So I said yeah, it protected me alright and I have been stuck ever since.

I really don't have any feeling for her. She's just a girl that has to be my cover up girlfriend. I have been increasingly unhappy each year I'm with her. I only stay because well I think shes in love with me. I couldn't break her heart.

I pull myself from my thoughts and walk out the door and get in my car. I drive to school within 10 minutes. I get outta my car and walk over to my football team. I give a light smile and I get high fives. I see Amy make her way to me. Oh god.

She walks up and stands on her tip toes and gives me a kiss. God even a peck of her makes me sick. When her lips touch mine it doesn't feel right. I look away. I don't know what has gotten into me. I hid this better in 9th and 10th grade.

Yeah 11th was shaky but I don't know but I really can't take it. I look at her confused face. "Whats wrong lo.." She says. I knew she was about to say love.

We never said it because one time she said it and I didn't say it back. Why should I. I don't love her. I'm not going to lie. Nothing I say coldly. She nods her head and goes by her other bitches she calls friends.

I don't mean to be so mean but I really do hate her because I can't stand being in this relationship anymore. Then I see James walk to me with a smile.

James is my best friend. I have known him since kindergarten. James is a cute brown hair brown eyed boy. He stands up to my shoulders because I'm taller. James has no idea I'm gay and he will never know.

The first bell rings and I walk to my locker. On my way I see Ralph. My heart stops a little. Ralph is the school gay. Everyone makes fun of him and he gets beaten up often. It breaks my heart. I like Ralph a lot.

I don't just like Ralph because he gay. I like the way Ralph looks. Hes my type. I'm 6'7 and he looks around 6'3. I like guys slightly shorter. He has beautiful red hair and big green eyes. Hes not cute, hes just amazing.

I see him look at me and smile weirdly. I guess I was staring. I looked away and hurried to my locker. I got my things and ran to class. That was close. I hope no one saw that.

My classes are not very long or they don't feel that way. I listen to the teacher as he talks and talks. My phone goes off and I roll my eyes when I see its from Amy.

Amy: Wanna go out to eat tomorrow? ;)

Oh great. When she puts that wink face shes horny. She always try to get me to have sex with her. I don't want to have sex with her. Kissing is bad enough. Sex is outta the question. I'm an 18 year old virgin.

I don't want to have sex with a woman especially with Amy. Only reason she is a virgin is me or so I think. I really don't care. I don't have feelings for her. Guess I have a date.

Jamie: Yeah sure where?

Amy: My pants ;)

I knew that was coming. Should have known. I text back what I always text back.

Jamie: Haha no seriously... Where so you want to go?

I hate it when she plays these games with me. Can't she get the message and leave me alone. Wait no shes my girlfriend. God.

Amy: We have been together for 3 years. Why can't we have sex? Nvm I guess....

Jamie: I'm not ready....

That's all I said. Believe me I want sex just not with her. I don't want her to take my virginity from me. I didn't get a text back. Thank god I don't have a date. I hate seeing her.

School goes by pretty fast. It exhausting when your pretending but no one must know. Lunch finally comes and goes and so does the rest of the day. Finally it comes to an end. I smile and walk to my car. Only to see a unhappy Amy. Shit.

"Where have you been!?" She yells. "Class" I say flatly. "You were suppose to walk me to car" She says angry. I roll my eyes and say something I regret to this day. "Guess you managed with out me." I said coldly. WHAT, YOUR MY BOYFRIEND START ACTING LIKE ONE!!!! She screamed and she walked to her car.

What a bitch. I get in my car and drive away. I get home and enter my house. My mother gets a warm smile. I see my dad watching t.v..

He starts yelling at the t.v.. "Hell yeah, get rid of the gays!" he yells. He watching some anti gay thing. I cringe at his words. My mother yells at him to turn that shit off. He mutters under his breath. "Its the truth."

If anything about me being gay got out. My father wouldn't have me. I run up to my room. I heard enough. Then I get a text from Amy. Great this day get better and better every minute....

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