Coming Outta The Locker Room (BoyxBoy)

Unexpected Plans..

I woke up to the summer sun feeling completely shitty.. I haven't seen Ralph at all.. I heard he come out of the hospital... School ened and its summer... We hve been together for 10 months and he was in the hospital for 5 off those months..

I'm a horrible boyfriend.. WHO DOESN'T SEE THEIR BOYFRIEND FOR 5 MONTHS IN THE HOSPITAL!!!! APPARENTLY ME BECAUSE I'M A FUCK!!!!

I lay back in my bed and cry hard. Why did I do this. I love Ralph more then anything.. I can't even go see him!? I hiccup on my tears and my mother comes running in amd holds me to her chest and I cry into it.

She doesn't question me any more. She just goes with it now and just comforts me when needed. I give her a tight hug and my years slow to nothing and she leaves. Probably to make me cookies like ahe always does when I am upset...

I am so sorry mom that I can't tell you..

I finally get out of bed and go to the bathroom. I have to get ready for the new foootball season starting soon... Idon't even want to go my life feels so empty.. I go to the bathroom anyways and go to was my face and brush my teeth which does not take very long.

I go back to my room and throw on sweat pants and a cut off blue shirt. I fix up my hair which I don't even know why I do anymore because the one person I got ready for isn't around to see... Tear start to build up in my eyes but I hold them back and go outside to my car skipping my morning banana...

I drive to pratice and it seems longer then last year. Everything seems longer than last year... I parkinto my spot and go off into lines and beginv  my drills with everyone else.. Push ups, sit ups, running laps, and so on and so forth... I go through pratice like a souless shell. Just going throught the motions...

When pratice comes to an end I see a shape on the wire fence and that shape had his fire red hair and he was smoking a cigarette and I knew it was him. My heat leaped for joy and ran to the shape which turned into the love of my life.

When I reached him he did not look up. I looked down at him and everything in my body screamed for his touch. My lips began to ack for his and my arms trembled for him to be in them but something told me not too...

Ralph finished his cigarette and looks up with rage and tear stained face. My heart instantly broke...

"Hi Jamie!!! How how you been?" He asked with a fake big smile. I went to open my mouth to explain but he did not let. He was going to let me have it.

"Really!! That is interesting!! Wanna know how I have been!!??  Alone!!! BEtrayed and heart broken!!!! You know I understand not wanted to see a lifeless body but I came out of the fucking coma and I did not see ypou for 5 mounths!!! I tried sooooooo harder to understand your fear but you know what Jamie...."

My eyes grew wide and I let the tears poor down my cheeks. "Please Ralph..."

"It's over I can't take the heart break anymore. I'm done. The cheating was one thing but now this I can't do it anymore. Bye Jamie." He did not cry and he just turned and left..

I felt the sobs work up in my throat. I ran to my car and drove home. I locked myself in my room and sodded until I couldn't see the sun anymore. The love of my life is gone..

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Later that night everything hurts but the greatest pain was in my heart... I layed on my back in my bed and let the darkness close around. I still had tears streaming down my cheeks.. I will always love you Ralph.. I am so sorry... Soon I fell asleep.

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THAT IS IT!!!! WHOA THAT TOOK A WHOLE YEAR TO WRITE!!!! I am so proud of this book and how many reads and votes. Thank you guys so much!!! Hey I know but guess what yes there is and epilogue!! Should be up soon! :D