Coming Outta The Locker Room (BoyxBoy)

Aftermath...

I spent a week home from school. My mother cared for me but I could care for myself. I wasn't a little kid anymore. My headaches went away pretty fast. I didn't get one text from Amy.

I don't really care. If she brakes up with me oh well. I'll find another cover up. It's not like I can't find another girl. Girls look at me all the time. I'm not interested so I just kinda don't care.

If she brakes up with me I'll make a twist. I'll date the nerdy kind girl but that would draw way to much attention and I definitely don't want that to happen. I already have my boyfriend.

I wish that could be good enough but with this life. Its not possible. Its more like I'm fucking a girl in the pussy and that pussy is life. I want a guy. I don't like pussy. That stupid whore.

Whatever. Ralph has been texting me the whole time. He couldn't come over because my dad took vacation so he could help. I told him over and over again that he didn't have to but he did anyway.

I don't want my dad to go on a long rant about how gays should be whipped off the face of the earth around Ralph. Ralph can meet my mother but not my father. That's outta the question.

This was my last day at home. I go back tomorrow. I get to deal with the aftermath of screaming at Amy. Wonderful. I guess we will see what happens tomorrow.

I get out of bed to make myself sandwich. My father hears me and runs to stop me. "What are you going? You should be resting." He said with worry. I just look at him with a look that can't be explained.

"I go back to school tomorrow. I can make a sandwich." I say icy. My father gets a stern look. "I'm just try to be concerned for my son." He said bitterly. Oh he wants to plat this game. Well game on motherfucker!

"You weren't to concerned when you were fucking some whore 3 years ago!" I said and matched his tone. His face went red and steam came out of his ears. It looked like he wanted to scream. Yeah I went there you piece of shit!

He tried to say something but couldn't say it because his head might explode. Then he took in a sharp breath and said something. "That's none of your business." He said bitterly again.

Really?!?!?! It's none of my business. It's my mother you ass hole. You broke that woman's heart. She loved you and you are to selfish to realize that.

"Go to hell! Really it's none of my business!!! That's my mother!!! Your wife!!! How could you so that to our family!!!!" I yelled and got in his face. "Why were we not good enough!!!! Is this family not worth your time!!! I bet you're doing it again. Staying at work late, strange phone calls!!! What the hell is wrong with you!!! Why can't you just love mom like she loves you!!!!!!!!! Why can't you love me the way I am!!!" I screamed.

Wait. What did I say? Oh great I hope he didn't notice that part. I got away from his face. He was red but shocked really. His eyes were huge and his mouth opened. He had the same expression Amy did.

Did I just went off on my dad? I had those emotions bottled up for so long. Three years of pain just threw up on my father.I actually feel better and horrible at the same time. This is the second time in the last week.

I need some help or something. My father didn't say a word. Just like Amy did. He turned his back to me. Just like Amy did. He walked away from me with the little self-confidence he had left. Just like Amy did.

I just wanted a sandwich! If he just leave me alone to make my own sandwich, I wouldn't of have ripped him a new ass hole. He is just as stupid as the bitch Amy. Fuck them both!

Now I'm so pissed I can't eat. I take my half finished sandwich and throw it in the trast hard. It landed with a tud and I went back to my room. I really need to control my anger better. If I don't it will be the end of me. Mentally I mean.