Coming Outta The Locker Room (BoyxBoy)

Amy......

I didn't come to dinner that night. I was so pissed at my father. You know let people just be happy but no he can't. What an ass hole. I really hate my father. Not just because of his lack of understanding. No its because of his affair on my mother.

I love my mother and she is such a sweet lady. She never deserved this. All the pain and suffering. All she ever did was love my dad. What did my dad do...He threw it way. He deserves nothing, I wish he would just leave.

I lay there in my bed with things running through my head. I can't stand hiding but I have too. The next day is the same thing over and over again. I have plan, Once I can move out. I'll never talk to my father and only keep contact with my mother.

I'll have the boy of my dreams. We will be married and have a lots of kids. Who is this boy of my dreams......Ralph.

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I wake up the next morning and make my way to the bathroom. I do my usual stuff. Then I make my way back to my room up stairs. I dress in dark jeans and a red shirt. Its a bit form fitting so it shows off my abs nicely maybe Ralph will notice.

Once I was finish with my morning routine, I head out to my car. I slide in the drivers stop and turn on the engine. I pull out the drive way and make my way to school.

I'm in my parking space when I see Amy standing there.Great. She has this look on her face. Great, what is she a huge horn ball. I roll my eyes and she opens my car door. She straddles me and shuts the door.

Her eyes are burning with lust. "Baby, can we please do something" she says with begging eyes. "No" I say flatly. Then pain crosses her eyes. I may hate her but I hate hurting her.

"Why" she wines and I see the tears. "Aren't I good enough?" she says with her tears spilling out of the corners of her eyes. I try to think about my words before I spit them out.

"No......We need to wait though...This isn't the right time or place." I said sounding as loving as I can. She nodded and get off of me and out of the car. Thank god she dropped the subject.

I get out of my car and walk into the school. I see James and walk up to him. "Hows it going?" I asked nicely. James smiled and said "Pretty good and yourself?" I never agree with lying so I just said "Alright" my famous line. Works every time.

Me and James talk about school and football. Then the topic I dreg comes up. Girls. "So you and Amy..Doing anything special for the 3 years together?" James ask with a wink.

I know he means sex. Like I said before, I have no interest in Amy that way. So I tell him what I think. "Not really.." I said and trailed off. James nods his head and continued.

He gives me this funny look. "You wanna die a virgin?" he joked. We both laughed and walked to class. Its nice to talk to James. He is my best friend and when I'm around him I don't have to think about my fucked up life. For once.

Class goes buy really slow. I'm not really paying attention to math and crap. Yeah school is important, its going to get my way from my dad. Some days I can't think about math or history or anything.

I think about Ralph. I want him to be mine. I see him next period but I also see Amy..... Ralph makes that whole class bearable. I start to think of a life with him. To me it seems so right. I mean he perfect for me.

If we were married, I would want kids. That's how serious I am about this. I never felt this way about a girl just guys. Ralph isn't my first crush.

When I was in 5th grade I began to notice boys. I liked the way they looked. When I saw a girl I didn't really like the way their bodies are shaped. That was also the year I joined football.