Coming Outta The Locker Room (BoyxBoy)

Counseling.

I woke up the next morning feeling tired. I didn't sleep well last night. I kept having night mares about Amy. How we are never breaking up. Then we had sex.. I woke up screaming at that part.

Anyways it was just a dream. I had counseling today so I'm not going to school. It was a morning appointment. I wonder how this will go? I'm not going to spill my guts in one day!

I need to get a feeling and test this person. You know get a feel for this problem. I'm going to tell her something weird and see if he or she tells my parents. If he or she does not this could really help me but if he or she does...... I won't be getting much of of this...

Although this could help with my anger.. Whatever we'll see how this goes. I'll tell this person that I cut myself or something for a test. I really don't, I have no cut marks on my pale skin.

I look at my clock it was 11:00am. I figure I better get my ass out of bed and start getting ready. I swing my legs over my warm bed. The cold air hits me like a ton of bricks. Now I remember why I didn't get out of bed.

I ignore my freezing skin and walk to the bathroom. I knocked on the bathroom door. No one was in there so I entered. I pissed and washed my hands. Then my face and brushed my teeth.

The whole time my Windex blue eyes followed me. Telling me I'm living a lie. They scream at me. Tell the world! Don't be ashamed anymore! It's who you are! Why hide?

Nope. I can't tell the world. I must hide because I am ashamed. I hide because no one will accept me. The only person in this world who accepts me is Ralph.

A smile plays with my cheeks.

Ralph.

Ralph.

Ralph.

Ralph.

Ahh I could say his name all day long. He makes me feel so warm inside. He melts the ice around my heart. I look at the mirror and my eyes turn gray. What!?

I pressed my face against the bathroom mirror once more. Why are my eyes gray? They never changed color? Then I heard my father slam his fist against the door.

"Hurry your ass up! I need in the bathroom!" My father yells through the door.

My eyes instantly turn its bright blue again. Ohhh I see. When I'm not hiding they are grey. That's when I'm happy and that's when I'm not hiding.

My true eye color is gray.

When blue... That's when I'm hiding. That's the mask. It's all the ice that hides who I am. Gray looks good on me. I wish my eyes were gray all the time.

My eyes didn't change there color because my father was still pounding on the door.

"Ooh my god! Use your bathroom!" I yelled.

"Your mother is in there!"

"Well wait! I'm almost done!"

I have been done for 10 minutes. That ass hole should shit his pants. Then he pounded again. Fuck that.I fling the door opened.Then slammed it shout.

I walked down stairs and saw my pretty mother. Her long blond hair was hanging down. She just dyed it again but oh well blond looks good on her. It matched well with her blue eyes. I see where I get my looks.

She looks over at me with her beautiful smile. I don't understand! How can my father cheat on Maria Smith! She is a beautiful woman! Tiny body and a big bust. Not to say but a beautiful face to match.

She always receives the double takes from men. She has a bright personality and is always smiling. To me it makes no sense at all. To me my mother is everything a man wants. Every man but my father which I don't understand.