short crush / love stories

I Trust You

POV: Coral Coral x Joey

Joey was one of my best guyfriends. Or actually my best guyfriend. He was like beyond sweet, and told me how it was. I've had a massive crush on him for years now. He was so kind and thoughtful

Joey was always there for me. I could always trust him to be safe around him. It was this weird feeling, really weird feeling.

He was very playful as well and confident. He was very intelligent, which was what attracted me the most to him. He knew a lot and taught me a lot. I was a curious individual, and he surped that out of me.

It was one of those days where I did it again. My little behaviors. My validation seeking behaviors. My urges got the best of me yesterday. I hooked up with somebody that I didn't want to hook up with.

My brain tried to constantly talk back about how stupid I was. My eyes shattered. I was crying. I knew it was full of lies though, because I knew deep down I was kind and had so much love for everyone. I knew I was a good person. This was what I was trying to tell myself. I was really dissociated again.

I wanted to throw up like normal. I wanted to throw the towel. But today, I just watched The Challenge. One of my favorite shows.

In the back of my head, I knew I couldn't run away from my problems much longer. Everything seemed intense. My eyes went bleak and I just sat there. Numbing out.

I know deep down I've done better.Did I want to make shit go even more haywire? No, I didn't. I know I have so much potential. I'm a great person

But when you keep on being stuck in your head, you start to not believe it anymore. I went numb and started crying.

I haven't talked to anyone for days. I was in my house. My parents were not there. Bleak. I felt weak that I was like this right now. How did it come to this?

My best friend Evelyn started to call me. Her and I were similar to as we were tomboys. She was a deep nice person. Who was misunderstood like me. Then there was KellyAnne. KellyAnne was so pretty. Beyond pretty and I could NEVER say anything mean about her. She was my girl.

I had to answer her. She was my best friend and I loved her.

"Coral..."

My eyes bleed. "Yes?"

"We are worried for you. KellyAnne, Me, and especially Joe. He has been so worried. Like really worried."

"He told me what happened. And I'm so sorry. I wish I was there. I just want you to know it's not your fault. I know deep down you would never want to hurt anyone. He just doesn't understand you and he's taking it personal."

"I know what Evan did." Evelyn starts to continue.

"And I know what you did too. And you are mad at yourself for making that mistake. But it is a mistake right? It's not the end of the world I promise you."

My eyes start to be bleak. "Evelyn. I'm so weak...I wanted to leave that bar and then I ask to come over to his house,"

"I know..."

"What kind of stupid bitch does that? I've told myself I could never in my life do that. But I continously do it."

"You are so hard on yourself." I can hear a break in Evelyn's voice, "You are not a stupid bitch. You are so far from that. And I just wished you saw my thoughts about you, and how I felt about you. What you've done to us, and especially Joe. Joe is like so more confident because of you. And for me, you humor me so much and make me laugh. All the time. Your jokes. And your little quirks."