I Hate You // Cody Carson (REWRITING/ON HOLD)

Chapter 7

This week is the last week of warped tour. I honestly don't want it to end, I don't want to have to go home and deal with everything that's at home. I thought that I would absolutely hate this summer but it's probably the best summer of my life.

Knowing that I have to go home in seven days is making me think about everything. I already know that I'm not going back to sleep anyways, especially now. It's only five in the morning but I guess I can just get up. I got up and got ready then went and sat outside the bus.

I've been doing this for the last two weeks I wake up and start worrying about stuff, I get ready then I come sit outside. I kind of like it no one else is out here yet and it's time where I'm completely alone. But today was different, I started to cry, I don't know why I haven't every other day. Maybe because I know that I'll have to be home and won't have anything to distract me from it. I also have to go back to school.

I know that finishing school is worth it because it means that I can do what I've wanted to do since I was about ten. Since then I cant remember when I wasn't obsessed with makeup, hair, or nail. I've actually been cutting and dyeing my own hair since I was fifteen. My mom didn't really like the idea of it but she put up with it. So once I finish I can be doing something that I really like, instead of a job that I'm going to hate.

Someone comes outside and sits next to me. I looked over at them it was Cody. "What's going on." I didn't want to tell him that I was basically worried about everything that would be waiting for me at home. "Nothing."

"It's obviously something if you're crying about it." He stood up and reached his hand out to help me up. We walked around for awhile, before I finally just decided to tell him.

"Do you really want to know that bad." We both stopped walking and he looked at me. "Yes."

"Basically everything that's at home, I have to go back to school and probably see Maddie and Jacob a couple of times." He pulled me into a hug. "Don't worry about them and just remember this is your last year of school, then you get to do what you want with your life."

There was more though I wanted to move out and I know that mom would never let me do that until I'm completely done with school. I honestly just wanted to not have to deal with her and everything else. My mom is great but sometimes she just wants me to do what she wants me to do, and we get into tons of fights about it. I would rather not fight with someone constantly.

"What are you thinking about." I didn't realize that I was crying until Cody started to talk. We were still standing there hugging, and I honestly never thought something like that would happen. "Still just about going home."

"Just remember if you need anyone once you're home there's still Maxx and I." I just nodded. I wish one could convince my mom to let me move and let me be me.

If I really wanted to I could just leave I am twenty two, but I don't want to do that to my mom. If I did that all I would do is feel bad about it and probably move back.

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I'm currently in the car on the way home, and I'm not ready. I'm not ready to tell her everything that happened and that I want to move out. I also know that I won't be able to before school, but once schools been going for a couple of months I do want to move out. I already know that she's not going to take it well.

I also know that she's going to ask me a million questions about how me and Cody are actually friends now. She's probably also heard things from Maddie and Jacob, she might even believe them about me cheating on Jacob or whatever story they told if they told her one.

I just know that my mom talks to Jacobs mom all the time so she's probably heard that me and Jacob broke up. Then she called Maddie and got whatever bullshit story she most likely told to her. She wouldn't have called me about it because she never calls me about what's actually going on with me. She does the same thing to Maxx all the time she always asks me or calls someone else.