I Hate You // Cody Carson (REWRITING/ON HOLD)

Chapter 10

It's been a couple of months and school has started, and everything has actually been going really good. I haven't saw or heard from Jacob and Maddie which is actually great. The only thing that's kind of a problem is Cody left for tour a couple of days ago, so that means I'm by myself until he gets back.

If I didn't have school then I probably would've went with them and did their merch again. They eventually find someone to do it. I would much rather be doing that than being in school right now. Once I finish this year I can do what I want.

I will probably end up working at somewhere cutting hair. I would much rather open my own place, but you never know maybe it could still happen.

Being here by myself still creeps me out a little bit, but I'm starting to get used to it. I'm going to have to get used to it anyways. I decided to finally get up, it's actually almost noon, I shouldn't have stayed up as late as I did last night, but I guess it really doesn't matter since I don't have school today anyways.

I'm probably not going to do anything, unless Elise wants to do anything if she doesn't work today. So I won't get dressed or showed because I don't have to because no one else is here but me. That is probably one of the only things that I like being home alone by myself.

I made myself a bowl of cereal and stood at the counter, because I filled the bowl with to much milk and if I would've tried to move it I would've spilt it. I probably would've spilt it anyways, I do every time.

I was watching tv when I got a text from a number that I didn't know. I just ignored them at first because it was most likely Jacob or Maddie, just trying to get to me again.

But then I actually read them. It was Maddie saying things like Jacob was cheating on her and she wants to see me. I don't know what she expected because if he was cheating on me I don't know why he wouldn't cheat on her honestly.

I didn't know if she was messing with me or not. I didn't want to let her come her because it's only me here. Maybe I should see what she has to say but if it's anything like she said when I saw her on warped tour I'm leaving.

Alex: If you want to we can meet up at Starbucks because I'm not going to meet up with you alone in a house

Maddie: okay when

Alex: if you want to we can today and we can around 3:00

Maddie: okay that sounds good

That was the end of the conversation. I don't know why I gave in and agreed to meet up with her because it could just be her messing with me.

But I do know if she wants to be friends again it's going to take a lot more that just saying sorry. I don't think our friendship could ever be like before either, not after what she did.

I don't know if I could ever trust her again. I really don't know if she's trying to mess with me or she's really being serious. I guess I'll only know once I get there.

I decided that I wasn't going to get anything once I got there and I was just going to find Maddie and see what was really going on.

Maddie isn't here yet so I'm just going to find somewhere to sit and wait for her to get here. I was preparing for anything to happen.

Once you do something to me it's hard for me to trust you again or even be friends. I hope she doesn't walk in here thinking that in just going to be friends with her again because I'm not.

I don't like to be like that, but I trusted her and she was my best friend and she goes and does that to me. At this point I was starting to think to much, I started to think about what if she brings Jacob with her and all these things, and if she does I have no one to come here because both Cody and Maxx are gone.

When she walked in she was alone and looked like the Maddie that I used to know, not the one that I saw at warped tour. She came over to me and sat down, she didn't say anything for a couple of minutes, we just sat in silence.

"I'm sorry about everything." She seemed like she was going to cry and I honestly didn't know what to do or say. I already said that sorry wasn't going to fix things and I think she knew that. Well she would know that because she was my best friend and knew literally everything about me.

"You know sorry isn't going to just fix everything, and it'll take a long time to even trust you a little bit again." I tried my hardest to not sound like a bitch and I honestly don't know if I did or not. She just nodded her head. "I don't know what happened."

"I don't either, but I don't know why you would do that to me, and also not tell me." She was still crying. The only reason that I wasn't is I had already cried so much about this, and thought about all of it so much. "I don't either and I feel so bad about it." I didn't say anything I just looked down at the table.

I was going to ask her why she got so mad at me, but she would probably just say she didn't know the answer to that either. We had another little conversation then we both left. 

I didn't know what to do when I got home because I had literally nothing to do. Home was boring without having someone else there, or having something to do. Even though I did have school, but that was kind of boring too.

I decided that maybe I should call or text Cody about what just happened. I really don't know what he would say though, maybe I shouldn't. He would find out eventually though because I live with him.

I did eventually call him, he didn't really have much to say but we did talk about other things besides what just happened. It's crazy to think that me and Cody hated each other just around three months ago and now we're actually really good friends.

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I'm so sorry that I haven't updated in so long things just got crazy and also sorry that there's no picture or gif to go with it. I'm going to figure out a way to update more often, but right now its just hard to.