I place my head beneath the pillow
Closing my eyes
Suffocating on my tears
Listening to my fears
Running through my head
I don't know what I want
In this crazy world known as life
I just know I'm hurting
So much inside
It's just eating me alive
And one day
There won't be any of me left
To be eaten
To be devoured
People tell me to smile
As if smiling is going to take
Away the hurt and pain
The self hurt I inflict on myself
With the razor
Or with my words every day
I've tried smiling away the pain
Did my best to hide my sorrows and cover my sadness
With the smiles I wear as a mask
But I've learned
That when it hurts this much
Your heart always has a way of showing it
No matter how many masks I wear
Upon my face
I know what it feels like to want to die
To take your own life
Get the world out of the way
How it hurts for me to smile
When I just want to cry
How I've tried to fit in
To be liked
To not to be teased
I hurt myself on the outside
To try to kill what's going on the inside
I know it seems like I'm strong
With my jokes
My laughs
And my smiles
But inside I'm fragile
I've had so many things thrown my way
And each one has left a crack
And I'm close to shattering
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Escape To Space
PoetryThis is a "poetry book". Instead of putting my poems as their own separate post. They will all be put here.