Scars Don't Heal When You Keep Cutting (Brusnop)

We touched and went our separate ways...again.

Danny's P.O.V

Ben stood with his back to us, looking down, playing with his hands. I sat in between James and Vic. On the other side of James was Sam and Cam and on the other side of Vic was Kellin, Jaime, Mike, Tony, Dahvie and Jayy.  Looking directly at the back of Ben's head. God he looked hot in a suit, even if it was his wedding suit. I sighed. After this painful two hours Ben will be married to the biggest whore I know. And I have to leave, I won't be able to stand being around the man I love and his whore of a wife. James squeezed my leg and gave me a reassuring smile. I stood up attracting everyone's eyes to me, even Ben. I smiled at him, though he just stared blankly at me like he was at war with himself. 

'I'm just going to piss mate. Give this to Ben and tell him to read it later yeah?' Giving a piece of paper, folded in half, to James and walked towards the bathroom. James looked at me, confused. But he just nodded and tucked the paper in his pocket. I pushed through the fire escape and followed the path to the front of the church. 

'I'm sorry Ben. I'm sorry.'

Ben's P.O.V

My eyes watched Danny give James a piece of paper and then head to the bathroom. The sound of the organ playing made me turn back round and look at the floor once more. Where's Danny? He said he'd always be there for me. I can't do this. I want Danny. I need Danny. I want to marry my Bear. Sam appeared next to me and the vicar began to talk.

...

'If anyone has any reason for these not to be wed speak now or forever hold you peace.' The vicar smiled at us both and waited a few heart beats before saying, 'I now pronounce you man and wife.' Sam beamed at me and kissed me long and hard which made me cringe on the inside. 

The hours that went by felt like years, most of the guys were drunk now and Sam, my new wife, was talking and thanking people for presents etc. I didn't really care. I only wanted to know where Danny was. I should have took boy Sam's advise. I should have broke of my marriage with girl Sam. I don't love her, I love Danny. I walked up to the guys and yelled over the thumping music, 'Where's Danny? I haven't seen him since earlier.' James looked at me blankly, a couple seconds later something must have clicked in his head as his face lit up and dragged me outside. The cold greeted me with a cold you've-fucked-up slap. 

'Danny told me to give you this.' James handed me a piece of white paper. The one he gave to him earlier. I opened it immediately, shaking as I read it to James. 

Here we stand, worlds apart, hearts broken in two, two.

Sleepless nights, losing ground, I'm reaching for you, you.

Felling that it's gone could change your mind, if we can't go on, can't survive the tide.

Love divides.

Someday love will find you, break those chains that bind you.

One night will remind you, how we touched and went our separate ways.

If he ever hurts you, true love won't desert you.

You still know I love you, though we touched and went our separate ways.

I'm sorry Ben. I'm really sorry.

James slid his arms around me and pulled me into his chest as I sobbed uncontrollably. I'd fucked up with me and Danny and now he's gone.

'We need to find him James, right now.' I hiccuped. He mumbled alright.

'What's going on. Ben? What's wrong?' Tony pulled me out of James's arms and held me at arms length. Behind him was Mike, Jaime, Vic, Kellin, Sam, Cameron, Jayy and Dahvie. 

'Its Danny, he's left because of me. Its too late, he's gone.' Sam clasped a hand to his mouth, his eyes filling with tears.

'Well lets stop being twats and lets go find him!' Andy stepped out of the darkness along with CC, Jake, Ashley and Jinxx.

Danny's P.O.V

I sat in first class and sunk back into my chair. I was going home, the one place the boys would never look. They would never think I would go back to York, so that's exactly where I'm going. I will miss them all and I feel like a complete dick because what would happen to Asking Alexandria. What would the fans do. We've saved so many lives and come so far on our own, just for us to crumble because I am being selfish and didn't want to see Ben with his whore of a wife. What sort of friend is that really?

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'Daniel?' My mom stood in the doorway, a shocked look on her face. I half smiled.

'Hi mom, how are you?' She smiled and let me pass. I walked into our simple living room and placed my bags in the corner of the room and sat on the sofa.

'You look like you could use a drink. Beer?' I shook my head, being drunk did not interest me anymore, I had too much to remember. 'Tea?' I smiled and nodded. I loved my mom, she would never pry into my business she would wait until I was ready to tell her and she would listen and give me good advise. My phone buzzed none stop and it was always different people, Ben, James, Sam, Vic and the rest of them. I couldn't bare to answer. It would crush Ben, crush him like he crushed me. I fell asleep in my old bed, in my old bedroom. It actually felt good to be home. I fell asleep and dreamed of messy brown hair, piercing blue eyes and an angels voice.

These oceans are far between our hearts,

Our breathing has got too hard.

These oceans are far between our hearts,

Our breathing has got...too...hard...

AN: Sorry this is short, I didn't really know what to do for this chapter that's why its so shockingly shit. Thanks for reading this far! It will get better. Hm I say that a lot. but it will! Promise :3