One From A Halo

All my fault

Alex's POV

So I left the hospital after Andrea got taken back to the room so I could clear my head of what just happened a few hours ago. I went to the place that helps me clear my head the best and started to think while my mom and Jess stayed back at the hospital to make sure Andrea would make it. Cause if she didn't I don't think I would be able to handle another death that wasn't meant to happen. As I sat there I started to think of freshman year again and that party I went to that I regret so much. And the fact that I agreed to have a drink and then more after that and I hate it so much but what I did in the past is that past and I have to try and move forward. The thing is that I can't move forward with the fact that Alexis kind if pressure me to have a drink but it's mostly my fault because I gave into having that drink.

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"Hey Alex how many have you had to drink? I had about 15 or was it 19 I don't know I can't remember." Alexis asked me I couldn't remember how much I had either all I know is that I feel free and I haven't felt this way in a long time.

"Ummmm...... I don't know I lost after 5 I think it was so maybe 10 or 16 I just can't remember." I said back to Alexis.

"So then add either 5 to the 10 or 4 to the 16 or something like that and we have had the same amount. Isn't that great so you aren't such a party pooper after all." She said back with a huge smile and everything.

"I know I told you I wasn't one." I told her trying to be serious but failed so much and we both started to laugh like there was no tomorrow.

"Let's go dance." Told me and started to drag me to the dance floor.

As she was dragging me I said "yeah let's go and have some fun." As we reached the dance floor I asked her "what time is I by the way?"

"Ummm I don't know I think around 12:00 am why?" She asked.

"Cause my ma wants me home between 1:30 and 2:00." I told her.

"Okay so let have some more drinks then dance and we will head home after that." She said back she calls my home her home and I do the same with her home. Cause we are at each other's house so much that it's like another home for us.

"Sounds great let's go and dance." She said to me.

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And I shouldn't of had anymore drinks and I shouldn't of had any drinks at all but I did and I'm facing so much in my life that I thought I would never face. As I came out of thought my phone was ringing and it was my ma telling me that Andrea is out of surgery. I said I will be there in a minute and ran back to the hospital to see what was going on with Andrea. I reached the hospital and got to the floor my mom said that they moved Andrea to a different floor and when I saw my mom I ran up to her.

"Hey Alex we still have to wait in the waiting room but they said that she is fine she just in a coma cause she lost a lot of blood for being shot twice. They also don't know when she's gonna wake up but he said that when he's done with her he will come and get us." My mom told me.

"Okay I just hate hospitals so much you all don't understand how much. I can't stand how all of this happened and I wish I could take it all back but I can't." I told my mom and Jess I really wish I could take it all back I can't though and for it to happen to Andrea. I mean first she has no parents now and she's in the coma and this is all my fault and no one can say different.

"Yes we do know how hard it is for you to be back here and we all hate hospitals but you know what they help us. You also can keep blaming yourself for what happened and I know you are cause you left to go to that spot of yours." My mom said to me but she doesn't understand that this is all my fault and I wish I could take it all back. I just can't cause now my half sister is in a coma I shot and punched my dad and I also shot her mom. This is how messed up my life has gotten since freshmen year and I also changed freshmen year even if no one will amid it but I did.