I feel so trapped in this shame
These horrid memories haunt me
My heart I'm trying to tame
My soul I'm trying to set free
Your hands on me as I said no
I'm tired I said, feeling sick
But that wasn't enough for you to go
That wasn't enough to make you tick
So you kept pushing me into it
The overwhelming pressure in my mind
My heart you continued to rip
As you touched me in no way kind
I feel disgusting and shameful
Because of the methods you did best
I can't look in the mirror willful
Without shooting pain in my chest
I hate myself
With every fiber of my being
I hate the nightmares of being on your shelf
Your hands groping and grazing
I want to scream so loud
But it would fall upon deaf ears
And you talk about it like you're proud
Of the way you tortured me through the years
I want to fight so hard
But I have none left in me
I just want them to deal my card
And set my soul free
