Living the Dream [JERRIE]

Chapter 1

JADE P.O.V

Me and the girls are currently finishing off our 3rd studio album which we collectively decided to call 'Get Weird' as we feel it represents Little Mix very well. We went with a more 'Pop' theme with this album rather than the likes of 'Salute' for example which has a far darker tone in a sense. We really feel as if this album can make people very happy... Don't get me wrong, the album does make me happy, but there is a certain blond sitting across the room in the opposite side of the studio to me which makes me happy beyond belief. If you haven't guessed already, yes, it is the one and only Miss Perrie Edwards.

I've had a thing for her ever since we were put in a group together back in X Factor, which was now almost 4 years ago.. Wow time flies! I know what you are thinking, 'Just tell her Jade!', don't get me wrong I have tried, but since she has started dating Zayn (yes the guy from One Direction), I haven't really felt the point in doing so, and anyway, she most likely straight.. What's the point? Who wouldn't want to be with him? He's a girls dream! Well, straight girls dream..

She is just so god damn beautiful, both inside and out. I would do anything to call her mine, and spend the rest of my life with her, married to her, with a couple of kids. To me, that is what I call Living the Dream. I'm quickly snapped out of my thoughts when my 'Boyfriend' Toby text me. He's not really my boyfriend, he's gay too, and in a sense we just sort of cover for each other, as we are both what people like to call in the closet. It's not that I am ashamed of who I am, it's just the fact that what if the world and my 3 best friends do not accept me for who I am? And more importantly, what if Perrie does not accept me and grows apart from me? Even though we are not together and I doubt we ever will be, I just simply need her in my life in some way.

The text read: 'Hey Thirlwall, I met this really cute guy today and I might go for him! Wish me luck chick! (I hope he's not a strange one like last time!) xx'. A lot of people would think this is a very strange thing to text your 'Girlfriend', but in reality we are just best friends in a way! He knows about my huge thing for Perrie, and he always encourages me to tell her, I couldn't ask for someone better to help. Although, at times it is hard to act like a couple when with the girls or with his friends, as we have no feelings for each other, although we do love each other, but not that way. He's like a brother to me.

I laughed a lot at the last part of the text, he could always make me laugh no matter how hard it is to hold all these feelings for my 'Best Friend' inside of me. It must of shown as the girls noticed I am laughing.

"Ooooo Jade's laughing at her phone, I wonder who that is..." Leigh-Anne said with a hint of sarcasm. She had her her head in her boyfriend Jordan's lap. They are really adorable and I can't wait for them to get married!

The girls quickly rush to where I am sat to try and get a sight of the text I had received. Luckily I have pretty good reflexes and snatched the phone away and locked it. I can't let them see a text from Toby, especially that one, it would completely blow the whole 'cover up' boyfriend plan between us.

"OMG OMG what did he say?" Perrie shouted putting her hand on my wrist as she was sat beside me. There, once again the tingly feeling in my stomach getting almost uncontrollable. I looked straight into her eyes and saw those outstanding blue orbs staring straight at my brown ones. They are like the sea on a Caribbean beach, and they make me fall harder for her every time I even look at them.

"Nothing..." I quickly say, hoping they didn't actually manage to see any of that text Toby sent me.

"Guys look she is blushing!" Jesy shouted to the others. It wasn't until then I realised that I am indeed blushing. Not from the text I have been sent, but the fact that Perrie had put her hand on my slightly smaller thigh and it was quite literally one of the best feelings ever!

"I've got to go!" I quickly rushed out. I needed to get out of that situation and fast! I can't give the girls and more importantly Perrie any hints that I am gay, and also the fact I have completely fallen head over heels for her. I looked back at the room when opening the door handle and received many confused faces from the girls. Then, a sea of random words coming out of their mouths resembling something along the lines of "What's wrong" and "Come back" being thrown at me. I couldn't go back in there, at least not right now, it would be incredibly awkward, and I couldn't just blurt out that I'm in love with Perrie!

I ran out of the studio doors and quickly into my blacked out Range Rover Sport. I tried to get away as quickly as possible, but as I left with no security pretty quickly the car was taken over by paparazzi. I drive at a slow speed to make sure I literally don't run them over, imagine the headlines on that, and also I needed to as be far away from everyone as possible right now because of what happened in the studio.

I arrive home and throw the keys on the coffee table and slump my feet on top of it. I bury my face in my hands and reflect on what happened in the studio. Did the girls think I was overreacting and therefore want an explanation? I need to think of one pretty quick before I get a call from them, worst case scenario one from Perrie.