Depressed Magcon Imagines

You Are Loved

Hello readers :) I know you were probably expecting an imagine about how a gorgeous boy cheers you up and makes you feel appreciated; however, unfortunately, I am not creating such a story. Today, I am going to be the bearer of bad news: I am no longer going to be writing entries for "Depressed Magcon Imagines". I know some of you might be mad because recently, upon asking whether or not I should continue writing, I was told by many of you that my imagines would be missed if I were to stop. I understand that my discontinuation of this story might seem inconsiderate and rude, but please continue reading this update because there is more that I want to tell you.

One of the main reasons why I am not continuing this story is because I feel that it is hurting my health. I have struggled with depression, eating disorders, body image issues, self-harm addiction, and anxiety for a very long time, and writing stories in which I have to connect with those awful feelings is not helping me. I don't feel that it is necessary to bore you with my whole entire life story of all my struggles, but I do feel the need to share something that recently happened. This year, the eating disordered and low-self confidence aspects of my mental health really intensified. I barely ate anything, and, when I did eat, it was an extremely small amount of fruit or vegetables. I lost so much weight: Every day the scale showed a lesser number than the day before. I sunk into the double digits--reaching weights I haven't been in years. I can honestly say that I would have died; however, thankfully, my family forced me to eat more, and, eventually, I began to want to be healthy again. This past year has made me realize how precious life is and how much I take it for granted; furthermore, it has awakened a desire for complete change in me. I am tired of living a life ruled by fear, and I am ready break free of these heavy chains of mental disorders. Recently, I have been amazed to discover the only true source of pure happiness.

Even though reading short imagines about attractive boys who come into your life and make you feel worthy of love might make you feel a faint touch of joy, it will never make you actually feel full and complete. It might feel sweet and nice to daydream about a modern day knight in shining armor who saves you from yourself, but that warm, mirth-filled vision will only last little while. I am not trying to be impertinent by being so blunt: I only want to be completely honest with all of you. The good news is that there truly is a way to be encompassed by bliss and peace forever, and that is by accepting Jesus into your heart!

God has completely renovated my heart throughout these past months of recovery. He fills me with peace, positivity, and love. I feel loved by Him, and I love Him. If Satan ever begins to attack my brain with worry, doubt, fear, and self-degradation, all I have to do is pray to God in order to restore my soul to peace. His love has taken me over and I have never experienced anything so euphoric!

I know that many of you reading this will have pasts similar to mine that are filled with negativity, disorders, and suffering. I want you to be able to experience the love of God! Anyone, no matter how unworthy you think you are, is welcomed to share in this serenity and joy. God loves you, and He wants to fill you up and radically change your life for the better. God sent His one and only son, Jesus, down to this sin and suffering filled world so that all of the people of the Earth could share eternal life with Him. Jesus, innocent of any wrong doing, willingly was brutally crucified, and three days later He overcame death and rose again! He has made a way so that you and me and every body on Earth can spend the rest of forever in His loving embrace! Please open up your hearts and invite Him to entirely change your life. Sincerely say this prayer and feel the weight and meaning of each of these of these words:

Father God I thank you for the cross. Lord, I know I have sinned, but I pray, God, that you will forgive me. Lord, I want you in my life! I want you to change me. Make me new, Father God. Allow me to feel your presence, and pour your love into me. God, get rid of my old, troubled self and all of the problems attached to my old life, and, instead, fill me with you, God. I come to you, God, because you are all I need! Baptize me in your Holy Spirit, Lord. Holy spirit you are welcome here. Fill me up, and allow me to feel the fruits of your love. You know every detail of my life,Lord, and I want to know you more. I want to experience your greatness, God. I pray ,God, that you will guide me in my new life and teach me how to love you more. I thank you, Lord, for your faithfulness and love. Amen.

I want all of you to know that, even though I will no longer be writing depressed imagines, you can still reach out to me. If you have any questions about Christianity, I am more than willing to answer them. I really encourage you to take this step in your life. I love you and so does God! Even if you just need a friend, want to vent, or want to feel loved and appreciated, you can comment on any of my imagines or send me a message. If you are experiencing any sort of struggle, let me know, and I will pray for you.

I feel that music connects me with God even more, and I encourage you to listen to some of my favorite artists:

-Jesus Culture

-Bethel Music

-Steffany Frizzel Gretzinger

-Jean Johnson

-Amanda Cook

-Kari Jobe

Here are some powerful playlists. I hope you feel God's presence while listening to these songs like I do. (note: not every single song on these are my favorites; however, the songs that I do love, are really powerful. Of course, everyone likes different music, so I encourage you to discover which songs tug on your heart)

http://8tracks.com/thatalainachick/the-lord-is-my-light-salvation

http://8tracks.com/endlesswonders/wonder

http://8tracks.com/littlelionlady/shine-into-our-night

http://8tracks.com/ehernandez-75/when-you-need-to-worship

I love you all and God will never stop loving you! Again, do not hesitate to contact me about anything. I want to help you, and I want you to feel happy and loved.