Never knew having a mate would be so hard

wedding day!!!!!

~~~~~raven~~~~~

                   Today was my wedding. It felt strange knowing i would be a mother,and wife. I knew my future and it made me fearful to think about losing it so quickly. The idea of finally having what i had always dreamed of was so close yet so far away. Because fate chose me as a saviour i could lose all that i have ever wanted.

                    I rubbed my tummy as i stared into the mirror. I had a fairly large tummy.,because I was an Alpha Female i would grow quicker then most. I was only about 3 months along so i would be able to give birth in about 3 more months. So to a human i would look about 5 1/2 months pregnant. It was probably stupid for me to get married now. I could wait until after I gave birth,and I could be thin and absolutly beautifu. No one really wants to be a pregnant bride, but in truth I was fearful fo I truly had no idea how long I had left with the ones I loved. I would rather have pictures of me pregnant and in a wedding dress for my children to look out,then no picture at all.

                    My dress was simple. It had lace sleaves that went to mid arm,with a brown belt under my breast, it made my baby tummy part of the spot light. I left my hair in soft natural wavy curls,I could always have a bigger,more extravagant wedding if I had  the chance to. But for now, I just wanted to marry the man of my dreams. I wanted my perfect moment., where everyone was there to watch two people in love make vows of forever.

                 I smiled as Bella,and a few of the pack girls walked down infront of me. Lilly my cousin threw red rose petals all across the ground. As the music started the world faded. I can't tell you what happened, all i could focus on were Jude's lips,the sound of the wind rustling the leaves. We had our wedding in our pack beach. The sun was shining hitting the flowers we had hanging from the tree branches from the forest that led to the beach,the wind blew my hair,the smell of the flowers and ocean swirling around us. Before I knew it,the words 'I Do' slipped past my lips,my wedding band for the first time resting where it belonged. Judes touched my cheek softly as his lips touched mine. When we turned around,everyone was cheering and smiling. I grabed  Judes hand as I felt another kick against my stomach. I stopped Jude,putting his hand on my tummy."Babe,what are you do-"His sentence was cut short as he felt a kick. This was the first time the kick felt hard enough where I believed he could feel it. Jude looked at me with wide eyes,tears in his eyes. He got on his knees and kissed my tummy. I saw the flash of our wedding photographers camera. I ran my hands over his hair softly, the feeling of him kissing my stomach was amazing. So much love,knowing he would love our children made my heart beat faster.

            The rest of the night was filled with love and happiness. We danced with pack members, the pack children hung onto Jude. Jude was amazing with all of them. They adored being with him,he was their hero. It was an extreme turn around from the man who had rejected me.

            I shook my head as the horriable memories filled my mind. Causing my heart to ache,Jude squeezed my hand as we sat in our plane seats. I tried to shake my dark thoughts away,but I couldn't help but remember how the regection felt. It was like thousands of knives tearing into my body all at once. I felt my power of future telling swirl around me. I looked at our hands and saw i has scratched Jude. His blood touching me. Thats was how my power worked. I had to touch a persons blood to see their futures, i usually cut their finger tip for a drop of blood. People came to me when they needed their future told. By people I mean the Alpha Council. Just like when the war was coming,they needed my help. I didn't like this power, I felt invasive. I didn't want to know how peoples lives would end,what their past was like. I hated when I touched someone and their blood happened to get on my skin. It was worse that I had a rare type of this power,if I even smelt someones blood, my power would work. It took years of practice to learn how to keep my mind to myself when in war. I had to shut off my power,the parts of my mind that would control that power. It was hard and after every war I had a migrain, I would get bits and pieces of someones anyones future.