Never knew having a mate would be so hard

honeymoon

                I guess my honeymoon wasn't how most would want theirs to be. But then again, who imagins being the size of a whale on their honeymoon. I glanced over at Jude as he carried our bags inside our room. Because I was Queen of the Werewolves, we got to stay in the royalties house. For generations the royal families had houses built all around the world,so they could always have a place to stay. As I watched Jude my mind was going in so many directions.

                   Do you know what it's like to see how you are going to die? How your husbands life will be after you,or even know you won't see your children grow up? I closed my eyes,there was something about that vision that didn't feel right. Something dark had tainted it. Maybe it was just my self hate to know I would be allowing another woman to raise my children and plesure my husband. I rubbed my stomach feeling their tiny kicks,a small smile flitted over my face.[THE FUTURE ALWAYS CHANGES,FIND THE DARKNESS WITHIN] The goddesses voice rang through my head. I felt my wolf growl,why was my wolf so upset. I closed my eyes taking a deep breath as I felt the energy around me change.I felt the babies squirm within me,my wolf quickly going to protect and calm them down.

                      I groaned as my mind felt like it was burning, it was going back and forth between reality and past. But it wasn't one of my wolfs past lives but someone elses. That had never happened and it was believed not to. I felt my eyes roll to the back of my head as i fell to my knees,"RAVEN!!!" Jude screamed,his voice was fading as this memory overtook my mind and put me into the past. Whoever I was,this must have been a strong memory for it to be able to make me a part of it.

~~~~~~~~~memory~~~~~~~~~~

                      "Aaralyn,I will catch you my love." I giggled loudly,picking up the ends of my dress as I ran away from Shane. I laughed loudly as his arms encircled my waist,pulling me flush against his nice entoxicatingly strong chest. My heart started beating faster as he turned me around and kissed my nose."I will always catch you my love."His saultry voice encircled me. "I hope so" I whispered.

                           I am Aaralyn Nicole Vanderhoxen. Princess of the werewolf world. I am the only daughter of Joseph Nixon Vanderhoxen. I am the ripe age of 18, today is my birthday. Because I was a female wolf I was too never give myself to anyone until I met my mate. I was too never let a male touch me in a private way,or too love a man other then my mate. But if I did not find my mate by the night of my eighteenth birthday, I was alowed to love another. Shane was my protector,friend,and the male who had asked for my hand in marriage.

                                 My father would have agreed too no such thing if it weren't for Shane being his best warrior,most trusted companion,and the man who was so kind to his daughter. Shane was the age of 25,he had the most gorgeous green eyes,dark brown curls cut short. He was tall and tan,with mucels in all the right places. His laugh was booming and made my tummy flutter. He has been courting me for 2 years now,even though he wasn't sure if he could have me. He told me he had fell for me because his wolf accepted mine even though he had already found his mate,who had passed away in a war when he was 19. My wolf felt fond of him,plus he was attractive and I was fond of him as well.

                                        Shane slowly stared into my eyes,a strange feeling went through my body. It was all tingly and made me want to pounce,to feel skin against skin. His breath tickled my face,making me close my eyes.Shane's hands rested on my waist as he lowered his lips onto mine. His kiss was sweet yet powerful,sending a roaring fire through my veins. Shane grinded his hips against mine,making me release a strange sound.

                                         "Don't touch my mate!"I heard a deep roar, one of power, one of evil. Shane stepped back,pushing me behind him."Move away from my mate."The man growled. I looked over Shanes shoulder to see the man. He was tall, strong , his eyes were an icy bule, his hair golden blonde, his skin wasn't dark but wasn't too light, he was my mate. Shivers went threw my whole entire body, my wolf howled within me. The wind blew my bright red hair into my face, I pushed it behind my face,gasping as the most amazing sent filled my nose. It was undescribable, like mint, the smell after it rains, yet musky like a burning fire. It was amazing.

                                          I slowly walked away from Shane, my wolf wanted me to be near this strange man. I felt a hand clasp around my wrist, Shane's brown eyes looked into my light blue ones."Aaralyn?"I felt disgusted by his touch."Mate."I whispered. I pulled away from him,walking over to the man. He had a smirk on his face as he pulled me flush against him."Aaralyn,what a beautiful name." I felt darkness wrap around me. Evil creeping into my soul, my wolf enjoyed it. But I didn't. I pushed away from him,screaming as my once tan skin turned a pale white, my red hair seemed to look like fire."What are you doing to her?" Shane screamed. My eyes flicked to him,before I knew it I had my hand around his throat."Poor little Shane, afraid of the big bad wolf."I teased. But I could feel it wasn't me,but the darkness that lied within." Aaralyn, why?"He mumbled my claws cutting off his circulation." This is me, the real me. I guess evil does conqure all. Say hello to your mate for me."I sneered, ripping his throat out.

                                        I heard a disgusted cry."You evil whore."A girl cried. I relized it was Jezzabell, Shanes little cousin, her eyes blazed with fury."You think that hurts,please."I scoffed." With everything in me you shall pay. From the dark lords to the lords of light, I summon the curse of the Devils Light. The pain and suffering of your generations to come, they shall die, they shall burn, with each step they shall falter, nothing working for their favor. Only the death of one so loved, shall break the curse of the Devils Light. You will bear only two children, every one of them shall bear two more, nomadder the good in their hearts,each on will die. Only the sacrafice of one shall free every soul, otherwise darkness shall follow. This is my curse, I seal it with death."Her words were laced with power,swirls of black,red,and white surrounded her. Her dark black hair swayed in the air,her green eyes were now a bright gold, her hands reached to the sky as lightning flowed through her body, she pointed at us"with my last breath I send this curse as my last desire" She fell to the ground as the lightning hit both my mate and I. I felt the curse surround me."All this time she was a witch. I should have known."I mumbled.

                                         I looked up and felt my heart break."One day three shall be born,but one must die. She must choose which will be given up. If she does not, her children shall continue the curse, one of them will bare the child who will end our world."My mate looked at me confused."Whar are you saying?"I walked to him."I saw the future, our future is not bright."He kissed my head."Love, we enjoy evil. No child can kill their own."His voice was strong.

~~~~~~~~~~~memory over~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

                                    I gasped clutching my tummy."NOOOOOOOOOO!" I cried, Jude held me to him. I felt my heart cracking, I rubbed my tummy, the vision of my children filling my head. I would have to kill one of my children just to save our kind. How could I take someones mate, mother or father, uncle or aunt, how could I ever hurt somone like that."I have to kill one of our pups, if I don't they will birth the one who will end our kind. How can I do this?"I cried. Jude growled."We have to protect our kind."I shook in his arms."Why us, why couuldn't they curse another family?"He kissed my head."It's not your family who is cursed. It's mine, I have known about the curse for years. Thats why I originally avoiuded you. I knew this was my curse. I'm sorry." I looked at him. My walls falling around me,"We are in this together. But which one do we let go."He frowned."The last born. We say it was a runt, that it couldn't survive on its own." I rubbed my tummy,feeling every kick. Which of you will I never see grow, hear your voice, know your personality, which one of you shall die before you even get to live.