If Only (Teen Fiction)[Completed]

Chapter 27- The End

Chapter 27- The End

-Cali's point of View-

I laid awake on Hayden's queen size bed thinking about Jacob.

All these other couples could have these supportive parents who were stable and they didn't have some sort of vendetta for your significant other.

I pulled the soft duvet around me and I started to trace Tyler's name on my left wrist. What would Tyler do? Would he be here supporting me and giving me ice cream like he used to?

I would give anything for just one more day with Tyler or even a minute just to tell him how grateful I was to have a older brother like that. He was the type of brother that would go into a "girly" store just to make sure no one would bother me.

Jacob is that way too, I just hope he doesn't do anything reckless like Tyler and get himself hurt.

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I was in my newish room sitting on my bed reading Maze Runner. I looked up from my book and saw that Jacob standing in the hallway.
"Come in," I folded a corner of the page down, closed the book and set the book down on my bed.

"Sorry about my mom-" I jumped out of my bed and went over to Jacob and pulled him into a hug.

"It's fine, I just wish she'd let us go on the road trip."  I mumbled into Jacob's shirt.

"We could just sneak out,"

"I know, but I've been think about picking stuff for college." I admitted. I was currently trying to as many colleges (somewhat close to home) as I could to see who would want me in their school. Jacob let go of me and sighed.

"Cali, I didn't want to tell you this but I am going to West Virginia University for a full-ride in football." Jacob looked at me sadly, his blue eyes darkening a shade.

I bit my lip, trying to think of something to say that would try to lighten the mood but nothing came to mind. If I stayed closer to home I would be far away from Jacob and if I went with Jacob I would be leaving my mother,Vanessa. I couldn't do that to her.
"Jacob, you'd be so far away." I replied sadly.

"I know, Cal and I'm sorry that I'm doing that to you."  Jacob kissed me on my forehead.

"It's fine, we can just Skype! Stuff like that-"

Jacob interrupted me,he looked so sad. "Cal, I'm really sorry that I'm doing this to you but I think we should just end this."

I bit the inside of my cheek trying to hold back the tears as a metallic taste entered my mouth. Tears blurred my vision. No! "Jacob that's stupid,"

"Long distance will be so much harder and I'd hate to do that to you." Jacob replied slowly as if he had to chose the correct words or I was going flip shit.

Unbelievable! "Jacob, please don't-" I cut myself off realizing that Jacob's point might seem stupid but it's what he wanted. He must not want a relationship if he was the one who is ending it.

"I guess this is it," I deadpanned, feeling a familiar numbness consume me. My voice sounded empty and I felt hollow. It felt like Tyler had died all over again. I felt like someone had smacked me in the stomach and I couldn't breathe.

"I guess so, be careful. Stay safe. I love you." Jacob whispered the last sentence, planting a soft kiss on my lips before leaving.

    For what seemed like hours I sat on my bed balling my eyes out and trying to figure out what the hell happened. I felt so alone. I tried to watch White Chicks but not even that distracted me from everything that happened this summer. It just needs to end.

I thought of a Winston Churchill quote: If you're going through hell keep going. Right? No this hell needed to need now. I sluggishly walked to my bathroom in search for all my old sleeping pills that I used to use back when my dad left. I took a pill out of the container with shaking hands. I shoved the pill down my throat.

I then took hand full after handful until the bottle was empty and my head was spinning and I felt exhausted and deprived of sleep until a few minutes later everything faded to black.

At least I'd be with Tyler.

The End.

A/n

Alright that was the need for if only. I might change it. Message me! I answer all of them. I know this chapter was a bit sudden. I wrote this like at 3 am. Thanks for reading If Only!! I'd love it if you guys would just use your imagination to figure out what happens. I've been planning to need the book with a cliffhanger for awhile now so here it is!
Sorry to need it like that. Don't do what Cali did! Ever. If you're think about that message me and we can get through this.

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