If Only (Teen Fiction)[Completed]

Chapter 19- Tattoo

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Chapter 19- Tattoo

-Cali's point of view-
I woke up to my phone going off with 'American Idiot' by Green Day.
Jacob pulled his arm off of me and groaned.
"It's so early, I don't even want to go to school. It's only Tuesday."
I sat up and pulled my hair into a bun. "Welcome to my world."
6 more days until Tyler's funeral. At least I don't have to deal with all the details. . .
"Do you think Ryder is going to ask Hayden out?" I blurted.
Jacob yawned. "Maybe, They'd be a cute couple."
I nodded in agreement. "Yeah they would be a cute couple."
Jacob pecked my cheek. "Like us,"
"Not as cute as us though." I joked.
"I can't argue with that."
"Okay, Jakey, lets get ready for school."
"I want to skip." He groaned.
"We've skipped enough of school already."
Jacob sighed. "Fine,"
I kissed him on the cheek and went to go get ready for the day. I noticed Jacob was staring at my Tweetie bird T-shirt and Sugar Daddy pajama shorts with a huge smirk on his face.
**
I walked to my locker to get my gym clothes out of my locker. The last period of the day and the most dreaded. Sure I do sports but I can't do dodgeball with ginormous, steroid-loving teenage boys.
Jacob walked over to my locker.
"Have fun in gym." He smirked.
"What?"
"You have it with Ryder and Hayden remember."
Oh."I'm going to be third wheeled."
Jacob gave me a quick peck on the lips and laughed. "We do that to them."
"True,"
Jacob smirked again and walked to his class. Hayden practically skipped over to me. "Guess what!" She squealed.
"What?"
"Ryder likes me!" A huge grin spread across Hayden's face, showing off her pearl-like teeth.
"I know!" I giggled.
"How?! Why didn't you tell me?!" Hayden demanded.
"I found out last night after the game."
I shrugged. Hayden and I walked to gym together as I told her how I found out.
After I finished my little story, Hayden was changed into her gym clothes with the biggest grin on her face. "I can't believe it! He likes me!" She said for the thousandth time in the past five minutes.
"Alright, Ladies lets go play dodgeball!"
Our gym coach blew her whistle.
We made our way to the gym and the boys did too.
Hayden and Ryder started staring at each other longingly.
Now I know how they feel when I'm with Jacob.
**
I watched the end of Jacob's football practice and I stood by the boys locker room waiting for him to come out.
"Cali?" Ryan's voice squeaked.
"Oh hey, how's your ankle?"
Ryan shifted on his crutches. "It hurts."
I nodded. "And how's Scott's concussion?"
"Shitty, listen Cali can't we go back to dating and maybe-"
Ryan was interrupted by a protective Jacob.
"Ryan leave." Jacob snaked his arm around my waist.
Ryan hobbled away on his crutches looking defeated.
"Dick," Jacob muttered under his breath.
Jacob being protective was kinda hot.
"Cali, I heard that." Jacob laughed.
Dammit! I always do that!
"I need to learn how to keep my mouth shut." I grumbled.
"It's cute,"
"It just gives you a bigger ego."
Jacob smirked. "True, but only when you say it."
"Let's just go get some food." I mumbled.
"Yeah, let's bring it to your mom too."
I felt a twinge of guilt that I haven't been able to see her in these past few days. "I guess,"
"Cali, I know you hate your mom right now but you need to try and be there for her."
"I guess, but I want to do something first."
"What?" Jacob asked curiously.
I honestly had no idea what I wanted to do I just wanted to stall.
"I guess you'll have to find out." I quickly shot out.
Jacob smiled. "Okay nothing dangerous or something you'll regret. Like a tattoo." He teased.
"Like you wouldn't get one."
"I've always wanted one but something meaningful or sincere. Something that I will always care for. It will be on your skin permanently. What would you get if you got a tattoo,Cali?"
Something I truly care about. Sincere. Meaningful.
"Tyler." I blurted.
"What?" Jacob seemed taken aback.
"His name." Yes. Tyler.
"That's meaningful."
I grabbed my wrist. "I want my left wrist because Tyler was left handed." All these words spilled out of my mouth before I knew what I was saying.
"Okay, let's go." Jacob fished the car keys out of his pocket.
"Where?"
"To get you your tattoo."
"I always thought it would be the other way around." I joked.
"Nope, don't want a tattoo just yet, baby."
**
"Ya ready?" A man with several piercings and tattoos asked me.
"Yes," I had chosen Tyler's name to be written in black ink.
The needle touched my skin and he started to write Tyler's name on my wrist.
Jacob looked at me in astonishment that I was actually doing this. It burned, searing pain shot through my arm.
The man took his time carefully writing Tyler's name on to my skin.
Jacob set his hand on my arm for comfort.
"Almost done," The man grunted.
He finished up the 'r' and then he put a bandage for it to heal.
"Wait until it's not swollen and red."
That's great instructions. "Okay," I paid him the money.
Jacob and I walked back to the car and got in to drive to the hospital.
"I don't think my mom will like Chipotle." I muttered.
"It's probably cold, we got it before we came here." I added.
Jacob sighed. "Cali,I know you're still pissed at your mom but you need to see how she's doing."
"Of course I'm pissed! She set the whole goddamn house on fire." I cried out in anger. "Hell, Tyler is dead from the fire."
"He's dead from drug abuse."
"I don't even care! She started the fire."
"Cali, I'm not trying to start a fight of anything I am just trying to make a point. Tyler killed himself and your mom needs support too. You are not the only one suffering from his loss."
"Stop the car."
Jacob stopped the car and parked at the side of the road.
"Seriously?"
"Yeah, I'm not going to see that failure of a mother." I unlocked car door and walked out.
"I should be kicking you out of the car because it's mine." With that I shut the door and walked off.
Jacob rolled down the window.
"Baby, be safe, I love you."
I ignored Jacob's last comment and walked over to Starbucks.
I walked up to the counter to a perky guy. "Welcome to Starbucks, what can I get you?"
"Surprise me with something cold."
"Okay, What size?"
"Grande,"
"Name?"
"Cali,"
"Alrighty, my name is Winston."
A few minutes later Winston came back with a huge ice tea. "I put some extra espresso, you seem like you need it."
"Thanks and I do," I admitted.
"This ones on the house." Winston smiled.
"Oh, no, I couldn't." I started to put my credit card his way.
"Seriously, no worries."
I smiled and took a grateful sip of my refreshing tea.
"Thanks,"
"No worries, oh and do you go to school at Beacon Hills? I just moved here."
"Yeah, I could defiantly introduce you to all my friends."
Winston had a crooked smile on his face. "Thank you,"
"No problem, will see you tomorrow?"
"Yeah,"
"Alright, thanks."
"No problem," I forced smiled and walked away.
Being nice while your really mad at someone is a extremely difficult task.
I checked my phone to see what time it was. 6:03.
I bet Jacob is still at visiting my mom.
I checked to see that I had about five missed calls from Jacob and three unread messages from him.
I listened to the voice mail.
"Cali, look, I'm sorry that I offended you about going to see your mom. I just wanted you to have your mom since she's the only person in your family that isn't a complete asshole. Ya know? I'll never get that because I'm adopted so I was trying to make you enjoy having a biological mother and not an adopted one that doesn't give a damn about my real parents. I just wanted you to have it all. Stay safe, Baby, I love you."
The message needed and was about to cry. Jacob wanted me to have what he didn't have. I touched my left wrist on the bandage. Jacob never had a brother or a sister-for all he knows.
I then listened to the other voice mails and the other four were asking if I was okay and that he loves me. I then looked at the text messages.

The first one: Cali, I love you so much. Don't forget that! Please just come back to the hotel. I need to make sure your okay. I will even buy you a separate hotel room or I can just go back to my house. If that's what you want. I love you.

The second one: Baby, I'm sorry. I love you. Are you okay? Are you safe?

The Third one: Baby, I'm sorry I don't know what else to say but this. I love you, stay safe.

Then my phone vibrated and showed that Jacob had texted me again.
It read: Cali do I need to give you space? Please answer I know you're reading this right now. I'm worried about you. Stay safe, I love you.

My fingers hovered over the keyboard, not knowing what to say. So instead I call him. Jacob literally answered as soon as the phone started to ring.
"Cali, are you okay?" Jacob sounded worried.
"Yeah, I'm fine-"
Jacob's voice cracked through the phone. "I'm on my way, where are you?"
"By Starbucks,"
"Okay, I'm on my way."
"Jake, I love you."
"I love you too,"
"Alright, bye, Jakey."
"Bye,Baby,"
A few minutes later Jacob pulled up in my convertible with Mouse hanging out of the back window with his tongue hanging out and drool flying everywhere.Dang he is such a cute German Shepard!
Jacob stopped the car and literally jumped out and went towards me.
"Baby, I was so worried! I know I seen clingy and all but you worried me."
I wrapped my arms around Jacob, ignoring the burning in my wrist from the tattoo.
"I'm sorry, you're right I should see her."
Jacob kissed me on the cheek. "You don't have to if you don't want to."
I kissed Jacob roughly on the lips.
Jacob pulled away with a smirk.
"Not so fast."
I stuck out my bottom lip. "C'mon,"
"Baby, we need to get back home. We have school tomorrow."
"But-" Then u remembered -Winston and I had to show him around.
Jacob kissed my cheek softly.
"Let's go,"
I nodded and we got into my car. Mouse attacked me with a ton of licks and boy did his breath smell rank!
**
"So, how is she?"
"Well, I really didn't want you to hear it from me. I'd rather you go and ask your mom yourself but I guess I'm going to have to tell you." Jacob looked very sad for me.
A squeak escaped through my mouth.
"Cali, your mom has depression."
"What the hell! I told her that all this drinking and smoking was going to get to her. Shes in a dark hole now"
Jake wrapped his arms around me. "They found out today it's probably because of Tyler's death, the fire and your dad leaving you guys."
"I have always noticed that she seemed distant and this one tie I caught her talking in her sleep about taking me and Tyler away." I admitted.
Jacob kissed me in the forehead. "Cali, that's why you should visit your mom."
"I might, tomorrow, if I don't forget about it."
"Cali, she's you mom you shouldn't forget about something like that."
" I know," I plopped down onto the hotel bed and used Mouse as a pillow. Jacob laid down beside me and kissed me softly on the lips. "I'm sorry about this all happening to you."
I shrugged and grabbed Jacob's shirt and pulled him closer to me, deepening the kiss. His tongue traced over the seam of my lip and I let him explore my mouth, his hands grazed at the edge of my shirt where skin was peaking out. My hands raked through his soft quiff after I let go of his shirt. I pulled at his bottom lip and Jacob moaned.
"Cali." He said as he took a quick breath.
I reluctant pulled away. "What?"
"We need to go to bed. I change only do so much." He winked.
I rolled my eyes and curled up into a ball not bothering to change into my pajamas. Jacob took off his shirt and laid done beside me.
"Mouse is taking up the whole bed." He whined. "I won't be a lie to cuddle with you." He added.
"That's to bad," I yawned.
"It's horrible, not being able to cuddle with you." Jacob grabbed my arm and yanked me towards him.
I sighed and gave in, curling up in to a ball. "Night, Jakey, I love you,"
"Night, Baby, I love you,"
I think I can survive about six or five more days until Tyler's funeral and going to visit my mom should be a blast.

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