Secrets 3

Chapter 33

Louis' POV

I'm so happy to back where Allison is. I missed her while she was here even though it was only about 24 hours. I just don't like being away from her. I wish I could have been here with her instead of Harry. I have nothing against him. Obviously since I trust him enough to be around her. I just feel like I should be the person around her all the time to make sure that nothing happens. It upsets me that I can't. I know she understands that. She's always been so understanding about everything. Especially my past. I got so lucky with her. No one else would have put up with it. I know I can't just let her go. She's my everything. She doesn't show any sign of going anywhere. She always so happy with me. Kind of like she doesn't care about what kind of monster I used to be.

I woke up to our room being a little darker than usual. I noticed the curtains were still closed. I would rather not me woke up from it being bright in here. I looked over and saw that it was already mid morning. It feels nice sleeping in. I hardly slept the night before because I didn't have Allison there with me. I was so worried about her. I looked down and saw that she was still sleeping. She looked so peaceful. I really don't want to wake her up. She deserves to sleep. Especially now. We're both not going to get much of it once our baby is here. We still have so much to figure out with everything. I know we'll get everything figured out. We always do.

I kissed the top of her head as I tightened my arms around her. I really don't want to let her go. I know I'll have to tomorrow. It hurts knowing that. I hate having to go just 24 hours without her. I know I have to work and I want to make sure she's safe. She's my life. I know once I have to say bye tomorrow I'm going to have a hard time with it. I know she does too. She just hides it so well. Unless it's just the two of us.

I'm not sure how long I was just laying there with her in my arms. It's relaxing. I'm always so relaxed when she's with me. I felt her start to move in my arms. I can't help but smile a little. She's so beautiful even when she first wakes up. I noticed her smile as she looked up at me. I can't help but smile seeing her's, "Good morning, beautiful."

"Good morning, babe."

I noticed her eyes keep looking away from mine down to my lips. I chuckled. I love seeing her like this. I lent down, gently pressing my lips against her's. I felt her smile against my lips as they started moving in sync with mine. I moved my hand up, cupping her cheek in it. I really don't want to pull away. I've missed this. I know it was only 24 hours but I missed her like crazy. I'm not sure I can do that again on Monday. I might take a sick day. They can't really say anything to me about that. I do still have sick days left. Not many though since I used some of them when I didn't really want to go into work and just wanted to spend time with Allison. She deserves all of my time. Especially now. She pulled away from our kiss. I looked at her a little confused when she smiled, "I love you."

I can't help but smile hearing her say that. I'll never get tired of it. I never really had anyone say that to me before. "I love you, beautiful."

I lightly pecked her lips, "I want to take you out tonight for a little date night."

I noticed her smile before cuddling closer to me. I'm sure she loves that. She always loves just spending time with me. Even after I've been an asshole.

I was sitting on the edge of our bed just looking at her as she moved around the room trying to get ready. I just can't help but smile. She's so damn beautiful. I really don't know how I got lucky enough to have her. I love seeing her growing bump. It's really noticeable since she's wearing a tighter shirt. I really don't care. I want people to know we're starting a family together. We haven't really told anyone yet though. We really should start. She's not going to be able to hide this much longer under bigger shirts or just one of mine. People are going to know. I don't care what anyone is going to say about it. I'm so happy we're starting a family together. Yes we didn't want it to happen this soon after we got married but it happens. Neither of us are upset about it. We both eventually wanted this to happen to us. I just hope our baby is like her. We don't need anyone else like me. I've done enough terrible things.