I was there
The day I died
The day the cold surrounded me
Pulling me to another realm
A realm where I am alone.
Alone, scared,and cold.
So very, very cold.I was there
When the doctors
Confirmed my fate
And tears poured down my mama's face.
But I was focused on you.Your face ghostly pale and
Eyes glistening
With unshed tears
Your hands yanking your long ebony hair.
The hair I once ran my fingers through.
It's silky softness in the dark night
Reminding me that you were real
And you were mine.I was there
When you broke down
Sobs racking your slender, delicate form.
I trailed my fingertips
down your back
But you could not feel me
Only a slight unexplainable chill.I cried along with you
Aching to feel your arms around me
Holding me close
Whispering I love you
Just one more time.We both cried ourselves dry
And I was there
Watching you whispering frantically
Over and over, an endless chant
That tore into my no longer beating heart."Why, why, why?"
I wish I could tell you my love
But I don't even know the answer myself......