Now I stand
Watching you
Practically a zombie
Just going through the motions
Without really living at all
And it's my fault.
If you hadn't loved me
You would be fine
Living happily
Talking about your new painting
Or the latest episode of Doctor Who
Or how you can't wait to be free of this boring small town
Making yourself into someone
That you are proud of
But because you loved me
You are broken.
I wish I could repair you
Hold you tight in a warm embrace
That would last forever
Or simply erase all memory of me
All memory of us.
I wish you would have found a girl
Who was whole
Not scattered and shattered like me
I still don't understand why me that day
A plain Jane
Not a goddess like you.
My life was inside a page
A world I created
A world where we were both happy
And life was perfect.
I wish you would smile for me again
Not the false smile you use to
Deceive others of your agony.
I want the real deal
The one that was taken away
Because of me.
