I was there
The day I died
The day the cold surrounded me
Pulling me to another realm
A realm where I am alone.
Alone, scared,and cold.
So very, very cold.
I was there
When the doctors
Confirmed my fate
And tears poured down my mama's face.
But I was focused on you.
Your face ghostly pale and
Eyes glistening
With unshed tears
Your hands yanking your long ebony hair.
The hair I once ran my fingers through.
It's silky softness in the dark night
Reminding me that you were real
And you were mine.
I was there
When you broke down
Sobs racking your slender, delicate form.
I trailed my fingertips
down your back
But you could not feel me
Only a slight unexplainable chill.
I cried along with you
Aching to feel your arms around me
Holding me close
Whispering I love you
Just one more time.
We both cried ourselves dry
And I was there
Watching you whispering frantically
Over and over, an endless chant
That tore into my no longer beating heart.
"Why, why, why?"
I wish I could tell you my love
But I don't even know the answer myself......
