What would you do?

Mom?

Chapter 15
I watch out of the window as we pass big buildings and fast food restaurants. I am on my way to group which was Wednesday one week then Friday the next week, more people are able to go that way. We arrive and my mom pulls into a parking space. I open the door and hop out of the car, "Love you." I say to her. She looks at me and smiles but didn't say love you back. I close the car door and she drives off, that is weird she always says I love you back. I walk into the building and go down the hallway, I turn left into the room that we have group in. I was right on time, I walk over to Evan and sit next to him. We talk for 5 minutes while the group waits for late people. We all were going through check in and then it was my turn. "Hi, my name is Amanda, I am 16 and go to Riverwood high school... and actually I have had a trigger this week." Most people just say they didn't have any triggers. "Tomorrow is my birthday and tomorrow is also the day my dad got shot a year a go. All my family is coming over and I haven't seen most of them since the funeral and I am afraid of what the are going to say." The group leader goes on to say some stuff about just being yourself and it is okay to grieve and I don't have to talk to my family if I don't want to. It was my birthday and I should be able to do whatever I wanted on it. I smile and nodded, I wasn't gonna tell her that my mom would never allow that, I would have to spend time with my family. After everyone had done there check in we all played a game. When it was time we all got in our goodnight circle and said goodnight to the person that died in our family. I walked outside with Evan. I knew that my brother Matthew was over at his best friends house, he was always there. I called my mom it went straight to voicemail which means she was probably drunk again. I looked at Evan and smiled and said "I'll see you at school!" He smiled and hugged me, "try to enjoy your birthday miss Amanda." I looked at him and said "Okay I will, text me later." he nods and walks off to his car. I sit down I the curb and wait for my mom or brother to remember to pick me up. I try to call them several times but there was no answer, so I did the only thing I could do, I called Brad. I mean he may have been a complete and total asshole earlier but I have known him since I was five and he has always been there for me. I'm not gonna let one slip up ruin our whole relationship. He picks up on the second ring "Hey princess, God I thought you weren't ever gonna talk to me again, are you okay?" he said all at once. His word all kind of slur together over the phone but I know what he said, it's so good to hear his voice again. "could you come pick me up, I think my mom is drunk again." "Of course anything for you, I will be there as soon as I can. I can hear him grabbing his keys as we speak. "Bye." I say to hang up. He got here about 10 minutes later. He got out of the car and walked over to me I stand up before I could even say hello he had pulled me into a hug. I was taken aback I didn't know how to feel I was still mad at him but I missed his strong arms. Slowly I relaxed and hugged him back letting him pull me tighter. He leaned back still holding my waist in his hands. "I'm sorry.. Amanda I'm so sorry, I'm sorry I haven't been there for you for the past few days, I'm sorry that I was an asshole, I should have never said that you and Evan hooked up. I just said it cause I love you, I love you so much and the thought of losing you to him made me jealous so I made a stupid asshole move. But not being able to talk to you has been hell for me, I missed you touch, your skin, I can't even begin to tell you how much I love you and how sorry I am. Please forgive me Amanda I promise with all my heart I will never do anything like that again I will be here for you, protect you, be your rock. I would chose you over any girl in the world. You are my world, my air I need you, I love you." at this point I was crying because I know I need him to, I need him and I missed him. "Of course I forgive you baby." I say as I press my lips against his. He pulls back and wiped my tears away. "I have an idea," Brad says. I raise my eyebrow and say "What?" "We should be like those people for fault in our stars since you have cancer, we should have like a word." I giggled and said "you really are a hopeless romantic, you know that right?" he chuckled and then said "Forever." that will be our word. "But that is impossible," I say. "How can it be forever when I'm gonna die?" I say. he grabs my chin and says "Because Amanda, I will love you forever. I smile and then he says "now I'm gonna pick you up like bridal style and carry you to my car and we will runaway and be a tumblr couple. "you really know how to ruin a moment don't you?" I say. I laughed and jumped on his back and yelled "Onward horsey!!!" He ran toward his car and I laughed my head off. I Swear we are still 5 year olds sometimes but that is okay because we are having more fun then they people that act mature alllllll the freakin time. I hop inside his car, he had taken me home before since my mom tends to forget about me so he knows the way to my house We drove out but he turned left, "Um.. what are you doing? Brad you are going the wrong way!" He looked over and smiled and said "We are taking a shortcut." I rolled my eyes and rolled down the window cracking the music up. We drove for about 15 minutes before we arrived at Andy's diner. It was the most popular place to eat here. "I figured since your mom is drunk and it is Friday she won't mind if we stop for dinner. I hopped out of the car and said "Sure, as long as you are paying!" I laughed and walked inside, Brad followed behind me. We sat at a booth, I order chicken fingers off of the kids menu, the regular plates are too much food. Evan order a cheeseburger with bacon on it and french fries. The waitress took our menus, Brad looked at me weirdly, I grabbed my oreo milkshake and took a big sip. He continued to look at me like I was an alien. "Do I have something on my face or something cause you keeping staring at me weirdly. Did I do something." He shook his head and smiled "No you don't have anything on your face." "Then why are you looking at me so weird?" "You are the most gorgeous girl I have ever laid my eyes on." he says as he looks me dead in the eye, he seemed so genuine about. I blushed and looked down at the table, "I'm really not that pretty." I mumble. "Yes you are Amanda." He reaches across the table and grab me by my chin pulling my face upward so I would look at him. "You are gorgeous." I laughed and looked him back in the eye. "You aren't to bad yourself I say" looking him up and down. He laughs and says "You are such a flirt, I mean I understand, I'm pretty hot." He says wiggling his eyebrows up and down. "But please control your hormones." I laugh as I reach over and play slap him. Right then our food comes. I eat my chicken fingers as Evan shoves his burger down his throat. Damn that boy can eat I think to myself. After we finish I am exhausted, it's one of the sideffects from my medication. We walk back to the car and I get in and I fall asleep on our way back to the house. I feel a gentle nudge on my shoulder that wakes me up. I open my eyes and see Brad's face above mine. I sit up and get out of the car he follows me."Thank you so much for dinner and the ride home, I had fun!" I say. He says back to me "Of course, anything for you princess." I blush he reaches down and hugs me. I gratefully take the hug I have been needing one recently. I walk to my front door and wave goodbye but Brad stays in my driveway to see if I can get in the house. I ring the doorbell but no one answers, I frown no mater how drunk my mom is she normally answers. Well I guess I will just have to break in. I walk back over to Brad's car and he gets out. We walk over to the back of the house. I always leave one of my windows unlocked just in case I somehow get locked out. It's kind of high up and I don't I'm too weak to open it so I need Brad to get it. We walk over to the window and he pushes it up, he pulls himself through the window so he can go open the front door for me. I walk back to the front door and wait for him to come. I'm standing there and he still hasn't come, it has been 5 minutes why is taking him so long? I keep on ringing the doorbell but no one comes. I start to get really worried, what if there is a murder in my house which is why no one is answering. I can't have everyone I love killed I started to cry and pound on the door right as it opens. Brad is standing there but there is something wrong. He is crying, and his hands are bloody.