Broken Without You

Chapter 15

The songs for this chapter are:
" nicotine "- panic at the disco
" flaws "- Bastille

You have always worn your flaws upon your sleeve. And I have always buried them deep beneath the ground. Dig them up; let's finish what we started. Dig them up; so nothing's left unturned. There's a hole in my soul, I can't fill it, I can't fill it. There's a hole in my soul, can you fill it? Can you fill it?

Rafinha's moms home was lovely, with the warm smell of delicious cooking enveloping the living room. A boy that looks very similar to rafinha emerges from the kitchen. "Hi, my names Thiago, you must be (y/n)" he introduces himself. His suit makes you feel self conscious with a soccer jersey and jeans on. Rafinha is wearing a jersey too, which makes you feel better. "My mother Valeria is in the kitchen finishing up" he adds, hugging his brother. They walk off to a corner, talking quietly. Looking around, you spot baby pictures of Rafinha and Thiago which make you smile. The house has a very peaceful aura to it, but when a certain blonde steps through it, it all shatters. "Um, Rafinha, have you seen Neymar" asks Avery, acting as if she doesn't see you. "No I just got here" he replies. "I think he was in the kitchen" says Thiago shyly. "Thanks" Avery smiles, her blue eyes lingering on his for awhile. You could swear Thiago is blushing but can't be sure. "RAFI, is that you??!!" You hear a female voice call out. "In the living room, mom!" Rafinha steps closer to you. A tan and beautiful lady comes into view. She runs to Rafinhas arms, hugging him and nearly crying. "Ive missed you!" "Oh, hello? Who's this Rafi?" His mom looks down at you and you stand immediately, shaking her hand. "I'm (y/n), nice to finally meet you Mrs. Alcantara." "This is my girlfriend mom" Rafinha says, love oozing from his voice. "Oh my goodness, well it's very nice to meet you, honey" she takes a good look at you. "She's so pretty Rafinha, how did you manage?" She jokes. "My thoughts exactly" Neymar walks into the living room, dressed in a fancy suit and red bow tie that takes you back to a special and unforgettable night. "Hey now" Rafinha grins, but holds you close, just to get a rise out of Neymar. He looks away. "Well let's get to the kitchen everyone, Neymars father stepped out for some champagne but he'll be back soon" Valeria announces. The seating arrangement is uncomfortable, with you sitting between Avery and Rafinha, but facing Neymar. Neymars dad is not late at all, and arrives with the promised champagne. "Hello everyone!!" He calls out. You go through the introductions once again, and pretty soon, everyone is sitting and eating a delicious meal. "This is amazing" Avery smiles at Valeria. "Thank you sweetie" Valeria says graciously. "Not as amazing as you" Neymar kisses her. You look away, and stab a piece of meat on your plate, bringing it to your mouth. "Before dessert, I would like to have everyone's attention please" Neymars dad calls out. Your heart rate speeds up, knowing what is to come. Each beat brings a new moment that will go down in treasured history for these two families. One beat brings the shaky voice of Neymars dad, the second a sparkly dimond ring, the third an ecstatic yes! A fourth a stunned silence followed by awkward clapping from everyone. Avery and Thiago cheer, while you look at the 'brothers' reaction. Neymar is not surprised, he already knew, but he is still sitting motionlessly. Rafinha is open mouthed, staring at his mom, and at the ring, and finally at Neymar. "Are you kidding me?! Rafinha finally shouts. Everyone turns to look at him. "I'm not going to ever accept him as a brother!!" He points at Neymar angrily. "What are you talking about?" Valeria asks. "I'm the one who should be disgusted to have a drug addict as a brother" Neymar spits out. Rafinha gets up, and yanks Neymar up by his suit. "Rafinha stop!" You yell. Thiago is quick to separate them both. "Drugs?" Valeria asks quietly. "Go on, " Neymar calls from behind Thiago, " ask your precious son what he's been up to after school" he says adjusting his suit. "Rafinha may I speak to you in the other room please" Valeria squeaks out, clearly in a lot of pain. You and the others exit the kitchen and head to the living room. You keep walking and step out to the balcony, taking a deep breath.
"Hey" says Neymar, standing next to you.
" that was a horrible thing to do back there" you say, folding your arms.
" I know, but I was sick of everyone acting like he's so much better than me when he's really not" he confessed.
"He is though" you reply. His golden eyes study your face. "You even said it yourself, and tonight you proved it" you shrug.
"Look, it's not me doing the drugs, so" he defends himself.
"He made a mistake that he has accepted and is willing to learn from, whereas you hurt him to save your ego and reputation as a winner.." I admit I might have felt something for you in the past, but clearly i was mistaken" you shake your head sadly.
"You feel something for me?" He asks quietly.
"Not anymore" you correct him.
He takes a vial out of his pocket and chugs it, he keeps drinking and drinking what you suspect to be alcohol. "Drinking isn't going to fix anything" you snatch the vial and in a brave moment throw it over the balcony. "What the hell!!" He shouts, looking over the edge. He is fuming, clearly nobody has ever prevented him from drinking before. "It's fine I was leaving to the bar anyways" he goes back inside and you follow. "Don't" you pull his arm. During the scuffle you both look up suddenly to see two people on the couch extremely close to each other. "GET OFF HER!" Neymar yells. Thiago and Avery jump away from each other. "Hey man, we were just talking" Thiago attempts to explain. "I'm done, I'm so done" Neymar shakes his head and runs out of the house. Biting your lip you run after him, wanting to calm him down. He slides into his car and you sit in the copilot seat. He's a bomb waiting to explode, and you are playing with fire, you know this, but you've never felt so sorry for someone, never wanted to help so much.
"Tell me what's wrong" you murmur, gently taking the keys away from him.
"Everything is! First my brother hates me, my coach won't let me play, my girlfriend is in love with another guy, and the girl I actually like is with my step brother.
"Why won't your coach let you play?"
"My grades are suffering pretty badly," he replies, playing with his gold watch.
"I can't let my dad down again" his shoulders are shaking and that's when you realize Neymar is crying.
You do your best to hug him, and then pull back before he gets the wrong idea.
" I know plenty of tutors at school that have helped me before" you suggest. "And rafinha will forgive you. As for the girl stuff, you're gonna find someone. You're Neymar Jr. for gods sake!" He laughs and wipes away his tears.
"Thank you (y/n). Now get out of my car before I do something stupid again" he threatens, putting a strand of your hair behind your ear.
"You never could contain yourself" you smile, and get back inside the house.
Talking to Neymar put a lot of things in perspective though, and when Rafinha finally appears in the doorway again, you realize you have to do something.