Broken Without You

Chapter 22

The songs for this chapter are:
" Fire and the Flood"- Vance Joy
" Stubborn Love"- The Lumineers
She'll lie, steal and cheat, and beg you from her knees. Make you think she means it this time. She'll tear a hole in you; the one you can't repair. But I still love her, I don't really care. It's better to feel pain, than nothing at all. The opposite of love's indifference.

Pushing him back, you stop the kiss.
"There's something you need to know, if your love for me is as strong as you say it is, this might not affect us, if it isn't, which I would understand, this ends here," you say, your voice shaking.

He leans in, "you're scaring me honey, what is it?"

"Rafinha, I, well i thought you had cheated on me, I was very hurt" you start, wiping your clammy hands.

"mhmhm?" he nods.

"The day that I left the wedding with Neymar, he was being really understanding and kind, he made me think differently.."

"okay?"he still remains confused.

"we were at his house, and one thing led to another," you shake your head, unable to continue, to look him in the eyes.

He inhales sharply, there is no doubt that he understood what you were trying to say. He sits with a shocked expression, then closes his eyes.

"I have to go, I have to think this over," he grabs his jacket and walks out the door. Running out after him you squint trying to see through the heavy rain, "RAFINHA!!" you call out, but he gets into his car and drives away. Pulling out your cellphone you dial Neymar's number immediately.

"meu amor, " he purrs into the phone. "Are you on your way back?"

"Neymar I need you to come get me, Rafinha left after I told him, and its raining and i'm scared something's gonna happen to him NEYMAR ITS ALL MY FAULT!!!" you burst out in tears.

"calm down, baby, you need to tell me where you are, don't move I'll be right there" he assures you.

After a few minutes, a black car pulls up to the brew's parking lot. Ney jogs out, and pulls you up from where you had been sitting, frozen and oblivious to anything going on around you.

" i can't believe he left you here that hijo de---" you whimper and he stops, instead he offers you his jacket which you accept gratefully.

"he reacted like any sane man would" you say quietly.

Once you're on the road, Neymar's phone starts ringing and doesn't stop.

"can you get that please, amor?" his eyes glued to the winding road.

"hello?" you croak out.

" Neymar?? I'ts Avery." You raise your eyebrows at Neymar.

"no, this is his girlfriend" you reply tersely.

"I'm so sorry for disturbing, but could you please let me speak to Neymar, it's an emergency. His brother just had an accident," Avery says worriedly.

The phone falls in your lap, you are unable to function.

Neymar pulls over immediately, and starts talking to Avery.

He demands  to know who was responsible.

He wants to know where his brother is.

He cries out whether or not he is okay.

The drive to the hospital is speedy, and reckless, yet time cannot pass anymore slowly.

There is a blur as Neymar pulls you through the rooms, into the emergency room, where the flourescent light is blinding and extremely uncomfortable. They really should change that.

The loudness of the children's crying, and horrible injuries there make you shut your eyes, hiding in the crook of Neymar's neck. Finally you are led to a specific waiting room, where Thiago and Avery are seated together.  Thaigo hugs Neymar, assuring him that Rafinha is okay immediately.

"he was driving very quickly, much too quickly to stop when that idiot drunk jumped out at him, he braked but he hit his head on the steering wheel. That's all the paramedic told us. He says it could have been a lot worse.

"i want to see him, where is my brother?" Neymar says anxiously.

"The doctor says no visitors at the moment" Avery says quietly. "We've been asking that same thing for awhile, but it was much too recent to allow it."

"I NEED TO SEE MY BROTHER!" Neymar yells, hitting the wall frustratedly. Jumping up you pull him into a hug. He eases into the hug slowly, unsure, a first for the both of you.

The wait is torture, the impending question of whether he really is okay on everyone's minds.

Finally, a short pale woman with pretty green eyes approaches the group.

"Rafinha Alcantara is being allowed visitors--family only" she states.

Neymar is about to argue but you push him to go, Thiago following him.

They practically run down the hallway, and the lady hurries to catch up.

Avery shifts uneasily, then lets out a tired chuckle. "They are very much alike" she says softly.

"yeah" you smile. "It's funny, we were just about to call Neymar to invite you two to the engagement party, when we got the call" she brushes her blonde hair back.

"You're marrying Thiago? "you say taken aback.

"Yep, we are in love and we don't want to waste a single moment without being together, anything and everything happens much too quickly, today was proof of that," she replies thoughtfully.

"that is very true, and well congrats, you guys look really great together" you smile at her, suddenly liking her a lot more.

"Can I ask you a question?" Avery wonders.

"uh sure?" you reply.

" Do you think that you would go with Rafinha or Neymar to my party? " she says.

"OH. well. I.." Thiago saves the day, walking in quickly, "(y/n) Rafinha wants to see you."

You follow him mentally preparing yourself.

"My brother really loves you," he says on the way.

"I know" you respond sadly.
He stops at a door to your right, and peeps in.
"We'll be in the waiting room" thiago walks away.
Inside the lighting is a lot more dim thank god, but you are still able to see Rafinha's cuts and bruises on his face, hurting you in a way that cannot be explained. Neymar is seated next to him, his hazel eyes fixed on his brother until he hears your uncomfortable "hello."
"Hi" they both say in unison.
"I'll be outside" neymar gets up, brushing your shoulder as he walks out.
"How are you feeling?" You take rafinha's hand in yours.
"Could be worse," he jokes, "i could have just found out I'd been cheated on."
Noticing your flinch, he squeezes your hand.
"I still love you."
Your eyes widen, "even after...?"
"Yes, even after that." He shakes his head.
"I'm hurt as hell, angry, and confused, but all that was going through my mind when they were pulling me out of the car was whether or not I would get to see you again." He admits.
Your tears fall onto his hospital nightgown.
"What did I ever do to deserve you?" You wonder.
He winces when you lean over to hug him, so instead you kiss the top of his head softly.
"Are you going?"
"Not until they kick me out" you smile.
He breathes out a satisfied breath and falls asleep.
Neymar walks in.
"Are you still in love with him?" He asks quietly.
You get up and lead him outside, shutting the door behind you.
"Your brother just had an accident could you be acting anymore selfish right now?" You ask in disgust.
"Do you still have feelings for him?" He repeats.
" i think i do" you reply, matter-of-factly.
"I can't just erase all of our history together to compensate for one night, Neymar!"
"One night, huh? That's all I was to you? Alright, whatever, it wasn't that special for me either" he walks away angrily. You sigh, and go back inside to take care of Rafinha, who needs you most at the moment.