her last words ; lrh [ old ]

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her last words // l.h

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lukes pov

why? why did this have to happen?

tiffany this is all her fault she's the reason she's dead, i will make her pay one day for this.

at the moment i'm sitting next to hannah, she has all these tubs stuck to her they say if she doesn't have some she could actually die.

i brought some of her stuff here because i know she'll live. i just know.

i got her laptop, phone and this book i found on her desk.

'her last words' the book says on the front cover, i don't think i should be reading this but i'll just read the first thing.

::date::
29/6/15

dear self,

today was like ever other day, i got pushed pulled and called names like...

fat
whore
slut
pig
dumb ass

luke, calum, ashton and michael aren't my only bully's. tiffany, eva, sophie and anna too funny thing is they are all going out.

anna with michael.

sophie with ashton.

eva with calum.

and- and tiffany with luke...

i hate seeing tiffany with luke, him making her happy i just feel like crying and to top that luke hates me.

anyway i gotta go wash my clothes before my mum sees them, i got blood on them from when i self harmed yesterday.

bye for now

by the time i was finished reading i realised i was crying i can't believe this i need to read another one.

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after i said another i meant the whole book, it's so sad that she thinks like this it's heartbreaking and it's half my fault.

i'm such a horrible person i should be almost dying not hannah, she's such a beautiful person.

"Hannah i'm so fucken sorry you got no idea." i say crying. "i'll be right back maybe wake up while i'm gone gorgeous."

hannah's pov

so apparently these wires and shit keep my alive what if i pulled one out.

i can hear everything luke is saying i'm pretty much alive but i don't bloody wanna be.

i heard him walk out this is my Chance, as i open my eyes my eyes land on my book it's open.

luke read it. fuck.

"i wanna be dead and that's what i'm gonna be." i say to myself while grabbing my book i'm gonna write one thing in it because it is called 'her last words' the book and that's what it is

i look around to see if i can find a pen and i do straight away, getting a new page i start writing.

::date::
start of August still