recovery ✧ h. grier

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jasmine coleman

After my encounter with Ashley, I wasn't really in the mood to go swimming anymore, so instead I just laid by the pool side and started to think.

who would've ever thought, that I'd be traveling the world, and making tons of money, and accomplishing so much at the age of 19?

Even though people say that love, can fix all your problems, that's a load of bullshit.

The truth about love is that it can make a person open up, but it can also make them shut down.

do you ever get some sort of feeling in your stomach when you start to regret something?

yeah, that feeling is what I have right now.

I don't want to lose Hayes, but I don't want to hold him back at the same time.

I start to put my hand in the water, and my body shivers by how cold it was.

I don't know what I'm going to do.

"Is it one of those nights?"

I look up to see Madison.

"yeah, I just don't know." I shook my head while looking down at my lap.

She then sat down next to me and put an arm around my shoulder while bringing me into her.

"I know how you feel," she started off.

really? because I honestly don't think she does.

"Sometimes you second guess your relationship, and that's perfectly normal."

okay. maybe she did know what was wrong.

"Second guessing is okay, but if you find yourself having no reason to stay, then the best thing to do is leave."

"but what happens if you don't want to leave, but you want to stay because they've stood by you?"

"someone else's opinion shouldn't influence what you want Jas. If you want to go then fuck them and do what you want."

I started to chuckle a bit, and wipe some tears that I didn't even realize form.

"but honestly, it's your life. you should live it how you want, and you should live it without any regrets."

"thanks Madison. I'll admit that I wasn't to keen about you but, you're a really good person you know that?"

"thanks that means a lot." she smiled back, "so what happens now?"

"I think I'm going to break up with hayes, and say goodbye to everyone." I sighed.

an: soo opinions??? a lot just went down.